currently listening to: on to the next one - jay-z

hey! it's been a while since i wrote on this blog. all i do on the internet lately is reblog stuff on tumblr. it's crazy. i remember a time when i said that my tumblr account would be for posting pictures that i don't think is relevant to the purpose of this blog. and now, my tumblr has taken over my whole life. i don't mind that much though since i don't have too much to write. my life is that boring.

so the last post ended with my enrollment for college. let's continue with celebrations now because there was a lot of that going on.

MOTHER'S DAY. to celebrate this hallmark holiday, my sister and i got our mom a cake. it's just the two of us this time so we didn't get to do much. we actually celebrated it on the 8th since ate ida had to go on duty at the medical city. i also made my mom a card/poster thing that i put op on the hallway mirror so everyone would see :D

SAM'S 17TH. ahhh! sam's birthday. on the day itself, i just greeted her through text since i wouldn't be able to see her that day. the next day was where the real celebration began because we went to trinoma for the partay. so the movie we saw was nightmare on elm street (after much debate between that and miley cyrus' the last song). the movie itself wasn't scary. it was the suspense that had me covering my eyes halfway. after that we ate at taco bell. while we were waiting for the food to arrive, koko, daryll, and i snuck out saying we were headed to the bathroom while we got sam a cake at red ribbon. we just joined forces because the three of us didn't get her a birthday gift. (sorry, sam! i wanted to get her this shirt that had the word LONDON written on it in bold. the lettering was a loud neon green. but i decided against it because the style of the shirt had this wraparound thingy on it and it just didn't look good) anyway, here's what we had written on it:

ATE IDA'S 27TH. so after sam's party, i had to get ready for dinner out with my family to celebrate ate ida's birthday at this restaurant in tomas morato. we went to yakimix, this new teppanyaki restaurant that offers japanese and korean cuisine. i had fun cooking the food and all that. we even saw polo ravales in there with his girlfriend. is he even in showbiz anymore? my dad was really annoyed at this one guy who keeps cleaning out the lobster every time they refill it. so rude. some respect for the other people who want to eat lobster too! jeezus. i checked out the reviews on the restaurant beforehand and it was really mixed. some enjoyed themselves and promised to return while others swore it was the worst dining experience they've ever had. i liked the restaurant though and i'd recommend it. we probably won't be going back anytime soon because my mom really doesn't like to go to buffet restaurants any more.

so that's it really. the rest of my days have been super boring and very routine. i was wrong you know when i said driving with my dad was the most stressful thing i've ever experienced. turns out, driving with my sister is 10x that stress. every move i make is scrutinized in a very bitchy manner. i hope she loosens up next time. i really dread having to drive with her in the car. *shudders*

13 days to go until college starts. but i heard on the news that deped is pushing the start of classes of public schools to the 15th. i wonder if that affects my school. but then again, it's CHED that has the final word on that now....i think.

a'ight. g'night. i'll try to blog more often and tumb'l less. :)

currently listening to: airplanes - b.o.b. ft. hayley williams

yesterday, my dad, my sister and i went to gateway to see date night starring tina fey and steve carell. actually, that's a lie. we left the house without knowing where we were headed or what we would do once we got there. i guess indecision runs in the family. that and a lack of communication.

anyway, we got there just in time. and believe me, that rarely happens (to me, anyway). we got there at around 3:45 PM and the movie starts at 3:50.  it really was a miracle because it was a saturday and there wasn't an impossibly long line for tickets. we were at the gateway cineplex on a saturday and there wasn't a line. who woulda thunk it? my sister got snacks (no line either) but she sure took her time salting her popcorn. we enter the movie theater and we arrived just when the last trailer before the movie ends. we settle into our seats and enjoy the opening credits. now that's what i call a photo finish.

the movie was really funny. like laugh-out-loud funny. there were also a lot of "WTF?" moments so that made it fun. i laughed the hardest during their stripper dance. it was all kinds of wrong but oh so funny. i loved that amazon's kindle was on the movie. yay for product placement! speaking of the scene with the kindle, the car chase was extremely funny. :))

after the movie, we browsed some of the stores in gateway, not really looking for anything in particular. then we ate at burgoo for dinner and headed home. the day started with lots of tension but we ended up having a good time. too bad my mom couldn't come with. i hope she feels and gets better.

in other news, i've finished The Titan's Curse, the third book in the percy jackson series and i must say, it is very funny. i've been spamming quotes from the book on my tumblr all night. now that i think about it, sea of monsters was not as good as the first and this third one. maybe because the gods are really the source of  most of the comedy in the series. anyway, i'm excited to read the fourth, The Battle of the Labyrinth. wonder what kind of trouble nico di angelo will cause. oooooooh. i'm excited.

i got into UP Diliman! thank you, God! i so wasn't expecting it. i had such a difficult time during the test itself. i remember feeling so sleepy during the science part. feeling at wits end during the english part. feeling hopeless by the time the math part rolled around. every blank i had haunted me. all the shoulda, woulda, couldas, did not stop crossing through my head. and now, i know for sure, i have a place at UP Diliman. it's surreal. actually achieving a dream. who woulda thunk it?

my dad asks me to think hard about which school i wanted to go to. up until he asked that question, i was sure UP was gonna be my home. maybe there is a high opportunity cost to pay if i give up ateneo. after all, my course there is a pretty sweet deal too. don't get me wrong. i love having this kind of problem.

may i just say to the four universities that have told me i have a place in their school, thank you. i know you guys are just after the applicants' qualifications. i know you care about whether they'd fit in with the rest of your students. but thank you anyway, for accepting me.

and to God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, thank you. thank you for being with me during the exams. thank you for giving me this great opportunity. thank you for these great options. i ask your help again, to be able to choose wisely. just...thank you.

and to my parents and family, thank you. for being here for me. for indulging my whims on those exam days when i would just have to say i'm thirsty for you to start looking around for places where they sell water. thank you for helping me. for paying for my review. for never doubting. thanks.

i feel truly blessed. thank you so much. i so wasn't expecting it.

currently listening to: fall out boy

the most productive thing i did today was to go to the airport to see my eldest sister off to jakarta. it gets sadder every time. you'd expect it to be easier since it's the fourth time we've gone to the aiport to see her off. i guess we all just really want her here. at home. with us.

the other productive thing i did was to continue reading ayn rand's the fountainhead. it's very interesting but the intellectual talk that takes up to a whole page sometimes make me want to just scan the thing. howard roark is a cool guy. the only wrong thing about him is his first name. howard. i don't mean to offend anyone named howard. it's just such an old name. that i somehow managed to attach to a loser. it's weird. but there is nothing loser-ish about howard roark at all.

it must be time to get back to reality and start doing my homework. i've done 3 of them so that makes me feel better about myself. but there are 3 more that makes me feel like a total - there's no other word for it - loser. maybe my name should be howard.

okay. deep breaths. that's what tomorrow is for anyway. january 4th. cramming day.

so, toodles to ate heny for now.

toodles to living like a slob.

toodles to so many other things.

yet so many things stay the same.

currently listening to: bohemian rhapsody - queen (whut?)

attended my sister's graduation from medical school yesterday at the picc. i had to watch all 406 of them get called out one by one. not my idea of entertainment.

still, it was a proud day for my parents. my dad even 'suited up'! it's funny 'cause he always wears a barong for formal occasions. his reason: "Para maiba naman!"

we ate lunch at sofitel after. friggin' buffet! let it be known that i love chocolate fountains! really, who does'nt?

my sister got a laptop as her graduation gift. thank gawd for that. she's been whining so much about getting a new one. my parents say that i am the lucky recipient of her old one....joy. they say it's incredible that i'm a mere high schooler and i already have a laptop. gawd. keep up with the times.

*finished watching Pineapple Express. definitely some LOL moments. the foot-through-the-windshield bit had me laughing so hard.

"Our window seats on both flights were near the airplane wing so our view was blocked...The airline food was good though. I watched slumdog millionaire, Mommy watched HSM2."

personally, i enjoyed it. although, the guy who played Seth had one expression all throughout the movie.

i think that rounds up the past two days. ciao.

a classmate of mine has awakened me to the reality that college entrance exams are upon us. i have also been reminded that i should get an enrollment into a good, if not the best review center there is. it sucks that i might not have anyone to go with me. oh no! life is so complicated.

currently listening to: use somebody - kings of leon

just watched panic's live concert dvd ...live in chicago. it was really good. they did most of the stuff they did on the manila concert. i bet it feels repetitive for them. (just kidding. i don't bet. haha - mrs. blanco) it's great to be able to see things up close. spencer gave a shout out to the audience which rarely happens, apparently. they packed in lots of bonus videos. i really like the tour documentary. they even greeted their fans in the philippines. i was really excited at first, that they singled us out. then i remembered that this was probably the "Philippine Edition" of the dvd. i bet they say that to all the countries. :)

their short film, "American Valley", was really random. there were these dream sequences that didn't make sense at all. what are they for? not much of a plot plus the narrator's voice was really disturbing. like he was narrating a murder story. the title of the post comes from the song ryan and jon were singing when their volkswagen broke down. it has a good tune.

we're going to my tito's place tomorrow to celebrate my grandma's birthday. i really don't want to go. i have nothing to wear! plus, there's be too much family bonding. :

things to do over the weekend:

currently listening to: remembering sunday - all time low

yeah. i promised a long post. i hope i don't disappoint. imma turn off the music so i can concentrate.

21 december 2008 - there i was. thinking i could just bum around the house when dad decides to drag me to calapan. i really didn't wanna go. but who could argue with him? so off we went. i packed the bare essentials because we were just gonna take the bus. couldn't take the car coz there was just the two of us. we had rolls and rolls of fabric with us for the funeraria. total hassle. but frankly, i wasn't bothered much because there were still porters around. did i mention we left the house at around 4? that meant 5 hours of bus ride + 2 more hours on a ro-ro. so we got to calapan at 11 in the evening. super tiring. i slept at mama's house. there were tons of mosquitos around. rather, there were about 2 mosquitos who were picking away at me. ugh.

22 december 2008 - i finally got around to sleeping. only to be woken at 4 AM by the bells of the church signaling the midnight mass. great. didn't do much for the whole day. mama and aling apin took me to the bayan to shop. got a shirt. mama got shoes. went home 'cause it started raining. ate dinner. slept. w/ a bed net this time. exciting day. dad offered to teach me how to drive already. dang.

23 december 2008 - woken by the church bells again. couldn't help it. i even caught a cold. the bed net wasn't that useful 'cause a mosquito still penetrated it.

moral of the story: tuck the ends in.

went to the main house to start organizing photos. started at the year 1976. was able to work my way to 1990 by the end of the whole trip. not bad. considering i sorted 600+ photos. went to visit cousins' place. got food for the gods from tita noemi. sampled tita tess' calamansi slush w/ grenadine and the fried crablets (thumbs up). went home and just watched abs-cbn with my grandmother.

24 december 2008 - organized more photos. surprisingly had a good nights' sleep. the bed net ends were tucked safely under the mattress. packed my things. left at 1:30 on the supercat. sped through SLEX. home sweet home at around 6 PM. went to mass w/ the family at santo domingo church. place was so filled with people we couldn't even get seats. had to stand the whole time along with 1000+ people. terrible.

25 december 2008 - had noche buena at home and then opened gifts. here's some of the cool things i got

currently listening to: patd interview - npr world cafe session (yeah...i know)

the family day is over. my section didn't win but i think we did pretty well, all things considered. i didn't stick around for the family day because the crowd was overwhelming and the heat was unbearable. besides, i wasn't looking too awesome that day, so why let everyone see my overheated state?

when i got home, i wanted to just crash on my bed.

alas, i have no bed! since my dad had my room repainted (he literally had it repainted it...as in the same color...white), the place smells like (what else) paint. it's really not healthy to be inhaling all those fumes so i had to sleep on my parent's bed. that didn't last long either. my dad woke me up so i could start putting my furniture back in. ugh.

sunday. i finally thought i would be getting the much needed rest i'd been longing for. unfortunately, my dad woke me up at 7 so we could go to my grandmother's sister's birthday party (tia nene). mind you, the party is in my uncle's house in lucena, quezon. about a four-hour drive. it was just me and my dad because my sisters are too lazy and my mom is too busy. we finally got there and it was another alcancia family reunion. it sucked that i'm the only representative from our family. everyone else's family was almost complete. we got there at 12 pm, just in time for lunch. i mostly hung out with chela, since we're the cousins with the closest ages. after lunch, we watched the hottie and the nottie with our second cousins in their TV room (or whatever you call the room with the TV inside). that killed the time while the adults chatted outside. the movie finished just in time for the goodbyes. everyone had to go back home and whatnot.

it was another four hour drive back to manila and then we went to mass. i guess that concludes another one of my exciting weekends.

oh, yeah. i watched high school musical 3: senior year with belay, daryll, and sam last friday. it was awesome! loved the songs. the only thing i didn't like was how it all ended for sharpay. i guess she has to learn humility and all that. oh, well. so, will there be a high school musical 4? i hope so. the newbies looked promising.

FRIDAY.

i woke up today with in inner battle. on one hand, i wanted to go to school. on the other, i wanted to go to the airport to give my brother a proper send-off. on my invisible hand, i just wanted to take a day off from school work. besides, i'm super sick. (coughs and sniffles).

i wake up and i say 'I am so going to school'. but as i was taking a shower, i thought 'I'm not gonna see my brother for a long time. He deserves my presence somewhat.'

i'm gonna miss him. i hope he survives and comes out on top. he has to. i missed a whole day of school for him.

i changed the look of the blog because i felt that the last one was so depressed and sad. this one isn't very exciting and it isn't sad, so i like it. does that make the layout like me?

friday, june 11. i finally got to treat my friends to a birthday party. it's not really a party because we just ate, but it was fun all the same. we ate at yellow cab along banawe and joked around a lot. nothing really beats just hangin'.

right after, i had to get my things ready for the leadership training. i panicked at one point because i couldn't find any pajamas.

the leadership training was tiring but fun all the same. we had an anticipated mass that seemed to take forever to finish. the team building activities were fun. gawd. i really don't feel like talking about it. too early for jokes.

it's sunday today and i went home at around 10:30 from school. i immediately took a shower and i was sooo ready to go to bed. but alas! my mom tells me to get dressed because we're going to mass at christ the king and then we'll have lunch at gerry's grill afterwards. apparently, it's my brother's despedida lunch because he's leaving for dubai on friday. we might not see him for two years so we have to have a despedida. (*he's not a DH/nurse/caregiver. he's going to dubai as an architect.)

and now, i've just finished the reflection paper on human sexuality and my adv. alg. homework. all that's left to do is study for my english LQ, 2 chem quizzes, and a filipino quiz.

ok. cool.

my sister left for europe today. she's going on a month-long trip there with our two cousins. she started packing five hours before the flight. she was in a total state of panic. i helped out as much as i can.

to ate heny: have fun and be careful!

gawd. i hope she figures out how to use the camera. :D

{[(update)]}
got a text from her: "Boarding na. I got upgraded, yey! Wait listed yung dalawa. I'm ensured of a comfy flight."

i texted back saying that it must be her "airplane outfit" that got her the upgrade. i didn't expect her to text back. but she did. she said: "No, I requested for upgrade for three people, kasi client nga namin yung emirates airline. kaso, 1 na lang ata kaya i-accomodae."

she even followed it up with: "syempre, client namin emirates noh"

i think she really deserves that upgrade since she's been so hassled all week. my two other cousins don't really have a job as demanding as ate heny's. it paid off in the end though because her connections got her the upgrade. ok. sleeping time. :D

we went to mass at the holy redeemer at 4. i was forced to ride with my sister and her boyfriend in the boyfriend's car because we would be "cramped" in the car. anyway, after that we went to trinoma (ate heny's choice). we planned on seeing Iron Man at 6:10 and then having a wonderful family dinner.

as usual, things went awry. finding a parking spot in trinoma on mother's day was absolute hell. we all shook our heads in regret. the scene was way too familiar (we went to trinoma on father's day '07). we should have known. trinoma is always full. even without a hallmark occasion. we eventually found a spot on the third floor - north area. ate heny and her boyfriend arrived earlier so they already got us tickets. tickets for the 7:10 screening. the 6:10 one was already full.

no on really wanted to brave the crowds so that cancelled shopping as something to kill the time. we were all hungry so we decided to eat at taco bell. we finished earlier than expected. we didn't want to risk being late so we headed up to the movie area. surprisingly, a queue of people were already at the entrance of cinema 3, waiting for the ticket lady to let them in. the only logical thing left to do was to get right in line with them. we were inside soon enough and for once, we didn't miss a single trailer. there are loads of good movies coming out. awesome!

Iron Man was really cool. he was a lot like batman in a way. they're both hella rich, their parents are both gone, and they have unlimited access to cool weaponry. the only thing that made iron man a little bit cooler was that his assistant is a really pretty girl. all batman has is his butler, alfred. but i bet they're equally dependable.

ate ida told us that there was something to watch for after all the credits were gone. we hung around. a lot of people did too. the clip wasn't what i would file under "worth waiting for". it just gave you a small preview of what the next one will be like. i thought that maybe war machine might still be alive. but, as my brother pointed out, he got totally fried. grrreat.

we met up with ate heny on the garden part of the mall. she told us she reserved a table at crustasia. my heart sank immediately. didn't she know that i was allergic to seafood? of course she does! i whine about it constantly!

when we got there, we were immediately given our menus. and as can be expected, 95% of their dishes are seafood-based. grrreat. i finally settled on "chang mai barbecue chicken". my family got a big crab in some singaporean sauce, bouillabaisse (had to use spell check for this one :D), pad thai, and some taco-looking dish.

the first dishes that was served was the pad thai and the taco-looking dish. i took a bit of pad thai off my mom's plate. the pad thai had some big shrimps on it so i didn't bother getting some for myself. i ignored the taco-looking dish. who ordered that anyway? we just had taco bell. the bouillabaisse came next. it was tomato-based so it looked a bit odd. it was laden with everything i was allergic to - squid, clams, etc. i dipped my fork in it and took a taste. i didn't like it.


i remember reading about bouillabaisse in the harry potter books. specifically in the goblet of fire. hermione told ron that it was a french dish and she had it when she vacationed in france. ron really liked it. fleur came over to the gryffindor table and asked if she could have their bouillabaisse. haha. so obviously, i couldn't resist tasting the mysterious bouillabaisse.

the chicken and the crab finally arrived so we started digging in. i took the chicken and my mom gave me a tablespoonful of crab meat. she told me it couldn't hurt. i ate everything and soon enough we were all filled to the brim. my lip started to swell. that's my allergic reaction to seafood. it was so noticeable. my brother started taking pictures to spite me. ugh. i hate my allergies.it was already around 10:30 when we finished eating so the mall was already closed. we took some wrong turns so we ended up in the mindanao parking area instead of in the north parking area. by that time, my stomach was aching pretty bad. by the time we got to the car, i was in agony.

it was majorly cramped in the car. i was already writhing in pain. i thought that it was just a simple stomach ache so i wanted to get home as soon as possible and take some pain relievers. but soon enough, my lips started itching again. my hands followed soon after, then my back, then everything just started itching really bad. we stopped for gas and my mom examined me. i was doused in cold sweat and the itching was getting more uncontrollable. my dad told my brother to stop at the nearest mercury drug to get me some allergy medicine. we didn't find one until we got to quezon ave. my dad and my sisters went inside to get the meds and buy ice cream. they wanted to get ice cream since we had to skip cheesecake, etc. they took their sweet time. by the time they handed me the medicine, i was praying for a scratching post. i took the little tablet and hoped for fast results.

no such luck.

we finally got home and i changed out of my clothes. i got to see my body and i was red all over. i looked in the mirror and my face had gone as bright red as a tomato. at about 1:00 AM, there was still no signs that the allergy medicine was effective. i was still bright red (like i had a nasty sunburn) and the itchiness was not going away. i couldn't sleep.

i finally gave up on sleeping and i picked up the nearest book i could get my beyond itchy hands on. gossip girl. reading it made me focus on the story, not the itch. at around 2:00, i stopped reading. i realized that the itch was gone! like a miracle! i was still a bit red but alas! the itch is gone!

after that, sleep came easily. i woke up the next morning feeling normal. finally allergy-free.

the food at crustasia is great, just not for those allergic to seafood.

gawd. and she keeps talking to me about inflation, her problems, and all her stuff. honestly. no one wants to hear other people's problems. everybody's already wrapped up in their own. mom has just been all up in my face since 7:30 this morning. the only time i had some peace & quiet was when she left the house between 9:00 to 2:00PM. good times. have i told you that i am officially my mother's tea pot? she asks me to make her tea round the clock. AT LEAST twice a day. damn.

my dad's been getting very weird as well. on our most recent trip to the mall, we saw a cardboard cutout of judy ann. he told me 'parang nakatingin saking si judy ann!' OMG. then he said to me that he was 'going crazy'. ok. that freaked me out so bad. he's getting really unstable. he asked me to come and spend some time with him in the province. gawd. i don't know.

my eldest sister is getting on my nerves as well. she's just so dramatic and so whiny! she whines whenever she can't find something immediately. it nearly threw me over the edge last sunday. i almost feel bad for her boyfriend because he has to deal with her constant complaining and whining. my eldest sister is so dependent. ugh.

my brother is so annoying. he doesn't do anything around the house. he's so lazy. he doesn't do anything. he's just in his room for the most part of every day. he comes out of his room for 4 things only:

1. to go to the bathroom
   
2. to eat
3. to watch tv
4. to get his phone calls

seriously. that's the only time we see him come out of his room. he doesn't eat his meals with the rest of the family. he doesn't join us on the dining table. he prefers to get his food and eat on the coffee table in front of the tv. i just get so annoyed by how he doesn't do anything. every thing's just handed to the man on a plate. he doesn't help with the cooking, setting the table, cleaning, etc. he just comes down whenever he feels hungry and scours the kitchen for something to eat. our maid usually leaves something out for him. ugh. and what about cleaning his room, which mom insists upon all of us to do. well, she's completely given up on my brother. my mom's resorted to having the maid clean his room for him because the stench of his room is starting to spread into the house. yup. he smokes. ugh. useless scum bag.

my other sister is mostly MIA. she's on clerk duty now. all part of her education. that's cool. that's one less person to boss me around.

there. i have stated practially all the reasons i hate my family. no, not really. there are tons more. but there are even more reasons that i love them. ugh. but not right now. ok, time to watch ANTM. ughhhhh!

!@#$%^&*()

my mom and her employees are going away to someplace in rizal for some team building activities. my mom invited me to come along but i declined. the employees wouldn't want me there anyway. it won't be much of a vacation if there's someone there to boss you around still. i think our maid, cel, who will be part of the team building, wanted me to come along so i can take our tres` expensive camera and take pictures of all of them. too bad. the baked lays won't be coming either. haha. so since it's just us siblings tomorrow, mom delegated tasks to us that we don't normally do. tasks that we take for granted because it's already done by the time we're awake. this is the MY list of things to do:

1. water the plants - plants in veranda + plants in front of house - very imp.
   
2. feed the animals - fish, dog, cat - very imp.
   
3. prepare dinner - check the refrigerator for instructions - you'll go hungry if you don't
   

i don't have it so bad. ate ida is the one who has the biggest responsibility. she's gonna be running the laundry while the employees are away. i guess mom really trusts her. she's always been the can-do kid in the family. she's very independent. i guess that's life as a middle kid for you. too bad it totally backfired on my brother. you don't have to know what i'm talking about.

so, they're off now. my eldest sister will be arriving later tonight from her baguio business trip. lucky dog. speaking of dogs, i have to give Banker his dinner tonight. :P

i guess you can say i haven't posted in a while. it feels like a month almost, since i last posted. i've spent the whole afternoon in front of the computer screen so my head is starting to ache now. but it is also because of spending so much time on the net that has rekindled my want to blog. i ask you, how can i think about blogging when there are projects to be made everywhere i turn? there just hasn't been any time to think about the day's events and let out my feelings (haha. inside joke). according to my last post, i've been telling you about the getting of cards and the decorations for the parent-daughter bonding. well, the PDB is over. i must say, i wasn't happy at all about how the decorations turned out. no offense to those who were part of the team, but it just looked really tacky. it was not how i imagined it to be at all. blame the lack of ribbon available. that and the fact that i never expected ribbon to be so pricey. so yes, i am at fault. should have used crepe paper instead, oh well. we are an NPO. let me get my calendar to speed you up on things. it has been really useful and reliable so far.

september 15 was when mikka, daryll and lourdes came to my house to do the decortions. it was fun but involved lots of work. we ended up working until 11 in the evening, and we weren't even finished! that must be because we spent lotsa time in national bookstore shopping for materials. we even saw pat evangelista there. daryll got her autograph! that was so insane. truth be told, she's not that big of a celebrity. but hey, a celebrity's a celebrity. daryll had her sign on my 1/2 lengthwise. talk about high school life. things went kinda crazy from there.

i was stressing all next week (after sept 15) because i still didn't have FOB tickets and it was days away. training sort of prevented me from taking a jeepney ride to cubao and getting tickets. another thing that has been clawing at me was that belay still refused to go. i wanted her there but i don't think that the feeling is mutual. her parents being out of town didn't help either. but after lots of sleepless nights worrying about it, my mom finally stepped in and bought mikka and i two awesome tickets, on the day of the concert. insane, right? i can't believe i put it off for so long. but thank heavens that everything fell into place. my mom didn't let me buy a t-shirt though. urgh.

so on september 21, i finally saw FOB live. it was awesome. we did have a run-in with security but we worked our way around that. they confiscated our cameras. naive little girls, displaying their cameras before it even got dark. we sneaked mikka's camera back into her bag before the guard noticed. good thing my camera is so bulky that it passed for 2 cameras. stupid security gurad for not checking. stupid camera guard for believing us. all i can say is, lesson learned. they covered basket case by green day which is pretty special. it was fun overall. i enjoyed hanging out with mikka. i have proclaimed her my official concert buddy. it was fun because everyone was singing along. sigh. i still wish we had vip tickets. we have cool seats but vip is just different.

last week was just brutal. projects needed to be passed, shorts needed to be sewn, compostions had to be completed, and on top of that, it was also our parent-daughter bonding! don't let me forget the speech examination. and on friday, i had a derma appointment! it sounds like a lot when i put it that way, but it sounds like a lot however way i put it. let's just say i never slept earlier than 11. good news regarding the speech exam though, i perfected it! well-deserved too, i might add.

this weekend was supposed to be for IDEA. i didn't attend because of the many above-average projects that needed to be made. i wish the team good luck! hopefully they all break. i miss debate but i i must admit that school is at a higher priority. maybe this kind of mentality is what defeats me as a debater.

i have to go now, but i still want to blog. i won't change my skin because i'm still loving this one. oh, btw, i have plans with sam, belay, and daryll on the 20th of october. it should be fun. perfect opportunity to wear my skinny jeans =) yes, i bought one, out of the kindness of my father's wallet.

mastery tests are coming up, need to bring up my grades. i'm getting nervous.

i was lounging around the house. shuffling from my room to the computer. i had half a mind to get changed into my house clothes. the wind blew and i was locked out of my room. the funny thing here is, i don't have the key to the door knob in my room. ha-ha. my mom was all angry finding a key that could open it. when she couldn't find it, i resorted to the worst but only way to my room. through kuya jay's room. you see, there's a window there that connects the two rooms. we've done it before when he was locked out of his room. but then, i was smaller, lighter, and definitely more flexible. now, i'm almost as tall as him, heavier and definitely stiffer. after many failed attempts to swing my feet to the haven that is my room, he finally told me to just step on his back and climb to the window. good idea, i guess, because i managed to land on the safety of my beloved bed. i also managed to get the door open. i guess it wasn't damaged by the lock-picking i tried to do a`la fred and george. my mom is now looking for the key to my room. before, i told her that it was inside. but the thing is, its not inside. i totally lost it! i made up some cock-and-bull story about how i already placed it outside and stuff. damn. i can never lock my room when i'm away ever again. and the really sad part is, i left my slippers in my brother's room. damn.

i changed my browser from windows internet explorer to mozilla firefox. i think kuya jay just had me convinced that firefox is waaay better than internet explorer. and in some ways, it really is. i just can't see the blog properly here on mozilla. is that another reason to change it??

this morning, i had my very last violin lesson. i feel like i want to continue but i don't have an instrument. sure, i have my dad's ancient one but its so small! my wrist aches so bad after only 15 minutes of playing. should i get one? can i take my violin lessons as something i want to do other than doing it to please my parents, most especially my dad? do i want to take it seriously and get a new violin?? i want to but i feel like i'm just the most spoiled person already.

its like i'm the kid of two incredibly guilty divorced parents. which isn't the case, obviously, because divorce isn't even allowed in the philippines. it just seems that way. i think my dad buys me what i want because i hardly get to spend time with him. he takes me wherever her goes, even on errands for the funeraria (i think he has a hidden agenda, he's showing me the ropes so one day i could inherit the 'family' business and take over for him...which, in my opinion, is so far from happening). my mom buys me stuff, stuff that i need. other than that she won't give into my whims. but i have a lots of needs. and i feel it adds up. the only thing i can do to repay them is to do well in school. i think for them that just makes it all worth the money they spend on me. wow. how can pining over a violin be taken to my parent's situation?

anyway, i feel like i've said what i needed to say in this post. but i feel there's still something heavy in heart that i can't blow away with my deep breaths. what is it? do i want to elaborate on my family situation? do i want to write more about the violin lesson i had to day? do i want to fully accept the fact that there is only 5 more days left of my summer vacation? do i rant about the fact that my uniform remains unwashed and my backpack has not returned from the wash? do i guilt over my 2 grand shoes? do i express exactly how i felt during today's disastrous violin lesson? somehow asking these questions make the weight lighter. but its still there. i never really believed that people could have a heavy heart. i could never sympathize with characters in books or movies when they feel or say they have 'a heavy heart'. now i know exactly what it means...and i sympathize.

not that significant but...whatever

today is the national elections. may 14, 2007, monday. the commercials endorsing the senatorial candidates (and even the city (?) candidates) will finally stop polluting the air waves. in our family, there are a lot of differences in opinion and few agreements. i personally don't care much about the election because i can't vote. my canadian cousins must feel the same way.

speaking of my canadian cousins, they are off to mauban with our aunt to relax and enjoy swimming in the pool. pfft. i so want to be there. but unfortunately, my aunt didn't invite me :( that's fine, i guess. i have more important things to attend to. sniff.

sam's party. we're going to rockwell. now i know i have to wear something fabulous. it was supposed to be gateway, which is more, you know, middle-class but rockwell is a whole other level. i feel ... for daryll.

leticia* was being a bitch (if my mom can say it in front of me, then i can definitely use it when she's not around) today. her mood swings can be so annoying. fortunately, i am aware of her happy side and will not judge her based on her mood today. honestly, when she gets in that mood, she attacks me. and only me. sure, others get a taste of it but i get it full on. sad.

still sad about fall out boy. bye now!