i changed my browser from windows internet explorer to mozilla firefox. i think kuya jay just had me convinced that firefox is waaay better than internet explorer. and in some ways, it really is. i just can't see the blog properly here on mozilla. is that another reason to change it??

this morning, i had my very last violin lesson. i feel like i want to continue but i don't have an instrument. sure, i have my dad's ancient one but its so small! my wrist aches so bad after only 15 minutes of playing. should i get one? can i take my violin lessons as something i want to do other than doing it to please my parents, most especially my dad? do i want to take it seriously and get a new violin?? i want to but i feel like i'm just the most spoiled person already.

its like i'm the kid of two incredibly guilty divorced parents. which isn't the case, obviously, because divorce isn't even allowed in the philippines. it just seems that way. i think my dad buys me what i want because i hardly get to spend time with him. he takes me wherever her goes, even on errands for the funeraria (i think he has a hidden agenda, he's showing me the ropes so one day i could inherit the 'family' business and take over for him...which, in my opinion, is so far from happening). my mom buys me stuff, stuff that i need. other than that she won't give into my whims. but i have a lots of needs. and i feel it adds up. the only thing i can do to repay them is to do well in school. i think for them that just makes it all worth the money they spend on me. wow. how can pining over a violin be taken to my parent's situation?

anyway, i feel like i've said what i needed to say in this post. but i feel there's still something heavy in heart that i can't blow away with my deep breaths. what is it? do i want to elaborate on my family situation? do i want to write more about the violin lesson i had to day? do i want to fully accept the fact that there is only 5 more days left of my summer vacation? do i rant about the fact that my uniform remains unwashed and my backpack has not returned from the wash? do i guilt over my 2 grand shoes? do i express exactly how i felt during today's disastrous violin lesson? somehow asking these questions make the weight lighter. but its still there. i never really believed that people could have a heavy heart. i could never sympathize with characters in books or movies when they feel or say they have 'a heavy heart'. now i know exactly what it means...and i sympathize.

wednesday. the day which i've come to know as the day before my violin lesson. you see, unlike swimming lessons, i can practice the violin in the confort of my own room. which, i feel, is better (?). i have been driving my sister crazy all afternoon with my bow-scratching...also known as playing the violin. tomorrow is probably my last day of violin lessons so i better make it count. i am actually enjoying playing the violin. i never thought it would happen coz i only enrolled in violin lessons to make my dad happy. he'll be so happy to know that i want to continue my violin lessons. i will probably never be a virtuoso coz i don't feel i am blessed with the violin-playing talent. but who knows? stranger things have happened.

hello world! i'm back with an all new chapter of this amazing record of my life. i haven't posted in a while. probably because i don't enjoy blogging as much as i used to. no doubt about it, there are a lot of interesting things going on in my life but i just didn't feel the need to write about it as i normally would have. so, what has been going on in my life?

well, my violin lessons have started. i go to this class with 3 other people. 2 girls and a boy. we're all pretty much the same age. all of us are complete beginners. even if i might have had a bit of a headstart. but they don't know about that. XD. also, i am also into cross stitching. my pattern is, drum roll please, a violin. haha. i have one track mind, no? i'm nearly a quarter of the way finished. not much, haha. what else am i up to? that's about it.

i also watch a lot of TV shows. i've seen ugly betty, entourage, heroes, lost, house md, among others. weird, huh? ahhh...not really. i plan to take badminton lessons. that's why i got new shoes. how horrible am i? i feel really guilty about it. but what's done is done. i'm also interested in taking those power memory classes. the kid on the advertisement said that before he took those classes, he didn't believe he could be a valedictorian, but now he is. pretty convincing ad, don't you think? so what's going on with the other people around me?my mom is busy as usual. dad is in calapan right now. ate heny just quit her job at pecabar but she has already applied and got accepted at a new lawfirm. i can't really delve into the details coz that's her career. kuya jay has review sessions coz his board exam is only a month away. we're all glad he's studying. ate ida just got back from puerto. she went with her friends. she is my TV buddy. what she watches, i also watch. can i help it if i think she's really cool? ysabel is also taking lessons in UP for piano. she also has this AHEAD thing to improve her already undefeated math skills. daryll is busy with her guitar lessons with the QB. that's about it. i got you updated on most aspects of my life.

i don't think i've mentioned this yet but I LOVE FALL OUT BOY! their songs are awesome! you remember lady sovereign? i was her biggest fan until i found out everything there is to know about her. so my obssession subsided. i stopped visiting her youtube pages because i've already seen everything there. i stopped going to her website because i already know all about it. i fear that the same thing will happen to my obssession with fall out boy. i already know all about them. so my interest is waning. i don't want that to happen but i feel that it will eventually. i just have to keep holding onto it until a new obssession comes my way. its sad, really. :(

so, news. channel 22 is no longer MTV. MTV got moved to channel 57 while 22 became DZMM TeleRadyo. the booth where they do all the talking is now televised. how useless is that? its meant for radio. so radio is where it should stay! its not meant to be televised, f'gosh sakes! in other news, i really wanna change my layout. i don't like this one anymore but i can't find anything i like. hopefully someone out there makes a skin that is perfect for me. ok. enough for now. i'll post again soon, i hope. =)

its been a while since i last posted. last month to be exact. haha. basically because there's been nothing to write about. i have a boring life. another reason is because my family and i went to baguio for the holy week. yes, the whole family. there has been so much stress on my part because i just want the whole family to go but mom and kuya jay threatened to not go. ahh well. everything turned out great. we went sightseeing, ate loads of food, took 3 naps a day, and ate more food. oh yeah, we bought loads of stuff too. i got two more new shirts. haha. i luv shirts! we stayed at baguio pines garden villas. it was a'ight. we had two rooms, living and dining space, and a kitchen. there was cable tv too. haha. can't do without the tv. =) we took tons of pictures everywhere we went because we have an awesome new camera. its olympus and its just so kewl. what else? summer classes are starting soon. ahhh. i'm taking violin lessons just coz i'm the only one who is. but i like it. i really wanna learn but i don't think i'm gonna be part of an orchestra or anything.