i'm just kidding! today wasn't really utter shit. at least it was better than yesterday - a day of utter shit.

there's not really that much going on. i've abandoned the treadmill but i plan to get back on it tomorrow. in a little more than a week, i'll be having my first day of college. can't go around looking fat. i've decided to really stick to it this time and be prepared. my first experience taught me a lot (plus i finally read some tips on the internet). also, i've been snacking on junk food like crazy because that's what i do when i have nothing to do. that and watch TV. i've discovered this show on velvet called make it or break it and i really like watching it. at least it's not set in some high school like 10 things i hate about you (which i tried really hard to like, but i ended up liking 90210 more. go figure.)

after going to mass, my mom and i went out for dinner at luk foo (it's awesome having a really good chinese restaurant within walking distance from our house) because she says she's too tired to cook. she called it our reward for being "help"-less for the past week. as in, we don't have a helper here in the house. it's hard because there's no one to wash the dishes, feed the pets, clean up after the pets, keep the floors clean, etc. those things that i took for granted because i never really had to do them. it's a reward dinner because my mom has managed to make me do those things (with her nagging) and i've managed to do them (with a lot of grumbling). you see, our helper's baby got really sick (she said it might be dengue) so my mom let her go home last sunday. the thing is, she said she would return on monday, and she never did. we got one text from her (since she doesn't have a cellphone or a landline) that said that no one was around to watch her kids.  it's really terrible because we've gotten used to her and she was becoming a real asset to the day to day activities here in the house.

oh well. mom hired a part-time helper for now, just to keep the house clean. sheesh. a'ight. i gotta go. gotta have some "me" time. (rolls eyes)

currently listening to: we'll be alright - travis mccoy

so, hey! i said i would post more so here i am. i even logged into blogger before i checked my tumblr which is a first for these past few months. today started out like my other days. check it out.

that sounds really bad but i guess that's how life is for me. i'm home alone most of the time and i don't have a lot to do. i usually just eat and eat and eat.

that got me thinking. how am i supposed to look good in any of my clothes if i'm fat? so after watching cadillac records on HBO, i decided to lay off the nissin chocolate wafers for a while and go use our treadmill machine. the computer thing on our treadmill machine is broken because it was attacked by ondoy. but it still works, you just don't get any of the stats like how far you're going or your speed or how many calories you've burned. i decided to just put some running shoes on, crank up my ipod and start running. bad idea. the treadmill was inclined and i don't think that's good for someone who's just starting out. i would have fixed it but i didn't know how to do it manually. so i say to myself, run for an hour then do it again tomorrow.

i lasted for less than 30 minutes. halfway through i was dripping with sweat (i didn't have a towel with me and i was too lazy to go up to my room to get one. after all, i was on a roll.) and the music coming out of my ipod wasn't jiving with the high energy i needed to finish the whole hour.

so i've decided to just google some tips for a treadmill workout and make a playlist that's full of upbeat songs. there. i'll try again tomorrow.

but right now, let me be sad for missing 3/4 of the latest episode of glee on ETC. the only thing that makes me kind of happy right now is it's the finale of american idol in less than an hour. booyah!

*i just ate a cinnamon roll and half a bottle of pringles. good thing i worked out today :))

currently listening to: jigsaw mixtape - lady sovereign

things i'm watching right now:

1. Avatar: The Last Airbender
2. Skins
3. Movies on HBO & Star Movies

anyway, imagine my absolute surprise when i saw lady sovereign's double shot on channel V. the videos were 'so human' and ' i got you dancin' '.

all i wanna know is, what happened to the side pony? her songs from jigsaw seem to be more sing-songy than rapping. it's not as catchy as some of the songs on public warning. she looks absolutely gor-jusssss on the 'so human' video though.

anyway, on to the real reason for this post. i've been watching samurai x/rurouni kenshin with my brother for a while now. and i must say, it was addicting. the dvd that my brother bought included 3 OVAs. my favorite one had to be Samurai X: Trust and Betrayal.

it tells the story of how kenshin got his cross-shaped scar, how he became the hitokiri, and his life as the battosai. i loved it so much. especially the kenshin-tomoe love story.

i got really excited about it so i looked up fanfiction about it.

i was sorely disappointed. i tried looking for kenshin-tomoe stories but they were so limited. mostly one-shots.

most of the stories are about the kenshin-kaoru love story. out of interest, i read some. it seems like people really like it. as for me, i couldn't stomach the pairing. i read one "lemon" and in my mind's eye, i threw up.i guess i just see them as friends. i don't think that what they have is real love. even after watching Samurai X: Reflection.

i have no idea why i feel so strongly about this. i must have been so affected by Trust and Betrayal. ugh.

in other news, can you guess how many posts i've made?

apparently, a lot.

i just ate four effin' grilled cheese sandwiches.

that can't be healthy. i've been interested in making some recently. in fact, i lay awake last night because i couldn't get the stupid sandwiches off my mind. how crazy is that? my sandwiches turned out well enough. i guess i was a bit stingy with the cheese so it didn't taste as i would have wanted. i wanted it to be oozing with gooey cheese. it was still good though. traditionally, grilled cheese sandwiches are cooked on a pan or something like that. i didn't want to go to the trouble so i just stuck it in the oven toaster. i got the same results. although, the heat wasn't circulated very well. a part of the bread would be toasted already but a part of it was still resolutely white. better luck next time. (i completely forgot we had a sandwich maker. it would have been smarter to use that.)

i'm going with my mom and her sister to san pablo, laguna tomorrow. my maternal grandmother's birthday is today so i think we're going to san pablo to visit her...grave. which is weird because my mom said we'd be going swimming. ok, mom, whatever.

lately, i've been watching a Samurai X marathon with my brother. it's quite funny. :D

today is may 12 which means its my sister's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! she's in gen san right nw to visit a friend of hers who invited her over. i already called her on her cell to greet her this afternoon. she seems to be doing fine and having the time of her life. tomorrow is mother's day. the second sunday of may. i don't really have anything special for mom because i don't have the necessary funds to go all out. so i'll just have to go with the traditional yet heartwarming present...a card. i hope she likes it. haha.

i got back from puerto thursday night. it was really fun. we swam on the beach a lot, ate a lot and got to know each other better. this is addressed to my cousins. i am definitely more comfortable with them. we joke around a lot. its cool that i'm finally talking to them. and i thought kuya jay was the only one they'll ever be talking to.

we got a dvd-rom. the reason? i wanted to play sims life stories so badly. its fun but it takes up a lot of memory space. i'm really enjoying it. i have also finished the 1st and 2nd season of entourage. there's a whole lot of swearing and things that aren't exactly PG-13 but its very entertaining. i just fast forward when things get a little R-rated. i still feel terribly guilty when i watch those things and i just know that if anyone was around, they'd tell me to stop watching immediately. but the thing is, no one is around. cel is the only one i have for company and she doesn't tell me off. XD.

i'm slightly sad about the fact that fall out boy kicked off their tour tah-day. i hate the fact that other people will get to see them and i can't! stupid honda civic tour! and what's more depressing is the fact that they end the tour on july 2. my birthday! actually, because of the time difference, it will be on july 3. but who cares? i still won't get to see them. and by the time i do, i'm guessing that i will be so over them. this is insane because i know that they can come to the philippines. i know for sure that lady sovereign has a lesser chance of coming here because i don't think she's that popular with the locals. oh well. ghodda jump!

hello world! i'm back with an all new chapter of this amazing record of my life. i haven't posted in a while. probably because i don't enjoy blogging as much as i used to. no doubt about it, there are a lot of interesting things going on in my life but i just didn't feel the need to write about it as i normally would have. so, what has been going on in my life?

well, my violin lessons have started. i go to this class with 3 other people. 2 girls and a boy. we're all pretty much the same age. all of us are complete beginners. even if i might have had a bit of a headstart. but they don't know about that. XD. also, i am also into cross stitching. my pattern is, drum roll please, a violin. haha. i have one track mind, no? i'm nearly a quarter of the way finished. not much, haha. what else am i up to? that's about it.

i also watch a lot of TV shows. i've seen ugly betty, entourage, heroes, lost, house md, among others. weird, huh? ahhh...not really. i plan to take badminton lessons. that's why i got new shoes. how horrible am i? i feel really guilty about it. but what's done is done. i'm also interested in taking those power memory classes. the kid on the advertisement said that before he took those classes, he didn't believe he could be a valedictorian, but now he is. pretty convincing ad, don't you think? so what's going on with the other people around me?my mom is busy as usual. dad is in calapan right now. ate heny just quit her job at pecabar but she has already applied and got accepted at a new lawfirm. i can't really delve into the details coz that's her career. kuya jay has review sessions coz his board exam is only a month away. we're all glad he's studying. ate ida just got back from puerto. she went with her friends. she is my TV buddy. what she watches, i also watch. can i help it if i think she's really cool? ysabel is also taking lessons in UP for piano. she also has this AHEAD thing to improve her already undefeated math skills. daryll is busy with her guitar lessons with the QB. that's about it. i got you updated on most aspects of my life.

i don't think i've mentioned this yet but I LOVE FALL OUT BOY! their songs are awesome! you remember lady sovereign? i was her biggest fan until i found out everything there is to know about her. so my obssession subsided. i stopped visiting her youtube pages because i've already seen everything there. i stopped going to her website because i already know all about it. i fear that the same thing will happen to my obssession with fall out boy. i already know all about them. so my interest is waning. i don't want that to happen but i feel that it will eventually. i just have to keep holding onto it until a new obssession comes my way. its sad, really. :(

so, news. channel 22 is no longer MTV. MTV got moved to channel 57 while 22 became DZMM TeleRadyo. the booth where they do all the talking is now televised. how useless is that? its meant for radio. so radio is where it should stay! its not meant to be televised, f'gosh sakes! in other news, i really wanna change my layout. i don't like this one anymore but i can't find anything i like. hopefully someone out there makes a skin that is perfect for me. ok. enough for now. i'll post again soon, i hope. =)

well, congratulate me! i have officially watched all of the episodes of princess hours! it is a really great korean drama. thanks to youtube, i was able to watch it. the ending is really nice. scratch that. the whole thing was awesome! in the end, they get married for real and shin chaegyung (yez! correct spelling! :D) is pregnant! wonder when they...??? =) now that i have finished it, it is time to resume normal internet activity, lately only visit youtube because i want to finish the series so badly! i now see what i've been missing. but now that its over, i feel so bored. nothing to do now. yawn. i'm gonna go shower now. i feel so sleepy from this boredom! yawn. that's it for now. =)