currently listening to: tik tok - ke$ha

i'm done with all my computer-related homework so what the hell am i still doing here?

i'm an internet-addict so that should explain everything.

today was really stressful. i had to finish the newsletter in time. i even gave myself a deadline: 3 PM. i made it you know. i really did. but i had to correct some errors that's why i finished it at 4. it doesn't matter though. i'm so proud of what i did. you should check it out here: banaHOW magazine. i'm not so sure if it will be super pleasant to read (a certain text-filled page comes to mind). but i still love it. in a way, it feels like my baby. gawd. that sounds so weird. but it does. i worked really hard on it for like 3 days (HAHA! don't misunderstand. please).

all the other work i had to do took a backseat to this one. it's a group project and i really don't want to let my group mates down. as a classmate of mine said, you can't do the group project last because other people are counting on you to do your share. however, a group is only as strong as its weakest link (ehem). overall, the group was commendable. gawd. whatever. i just hope we get a high grade.

okay. i have to prepare for tomorrow already.

holla!

and may i just say to all those who developed a crush for logan lerman: i saw him way before you saw him on percy jackson. and i have proof: APRIL 2009 and further reinforced: NOVEMBER 2009. thank you for your time. =))

-Pa Alman

i feel like i should stop wearing a watch during class hours. every time i glance at it and find out that there's like 20 minutes left, i get all impatient and i glance at the teacher to see if he/she is about to wrap up. it's a terrible attitude towards learning but my late nights catch up with me during class. not at night, like it's supposed to.

speaking of late nights, i've been having those lately without good reason. i just spend my time on the internet, doing useless things. it's terrible. but i just can't pull myself away! (to the tune of ne-yo's closer. just saw it performed on AI) by some cool people.

tomorrow is personnel's day. as in the tribute stuff so i have no motivation to do any work at all. i did, a while ago. i did the codes for the computer project and organized the article assignments for the banahaw newsletter, but that's about it. i still have a ton of work to do that i just can't seem to bring myself to DO right now.

i hate believing in this saying: it's not homework 'til it's due tomorrow. i really don't want to believe it, but i do. damn it.

a while ago, we got to watch the ICM tribute of the grade school chorale in the revamped Social Hall. the social hall is really impressive now. it's air-conditioned, there's an area for the soundboards, the projector is well-hidden, the seats are decent, the stage and lights...truly impressive. i'm just really jealous that i may not get a chance to go on that stage and perform. haha! come to think of it, i don't mind so much because i the old social hall wasn't ALL bad. i can just imagine debates and forums being held there. STC is moving on up!

as for the tribute itself, it was worthy of the stage. it was obvious that they all prepared very well for the presentation and they took great effort to make it a really good show. i say the 50 bucks was well worth it. if i had to describe it in one word, that word would be: CUTE. just as a grade school presentation should be. the depressing stuff should be left to the high school presentations (dance pro? abuse of women? oppression? yes, yes?).

afternoon classes resumed and we had a quiz in physics. i didn't study at all, i didn't even bother. i blame that on my being absent. there's just something about actually discussing the lesson in class that makes you understand it more. self-study doesn't work for me. i conclude that if  you weren't there for the actual lesson, it's hard to care about it.

that concludes my day. sayonara.

it's really sad that i can't do the adv comp homework. it's sad because i haven't even tried. stupid movie review drained my head of any coherence. it will return when i have gotten a good night's sleep. which was totally not what i got last night. stupid scratching noises. stupid pests. i'm gonna try doing my adv comp homework now because it kills me to know i didn't even try.

currently listening to: love is gonna getcha - lucy woodward

it's amazing how tired i am versus how tired i feel. i feel like there is an enormous weight on my shoulders to get everything done. and the more time i spend thinking about what i have to do, the more time i waste. i want to taste freedom once more. wherein freedom means not having to submit anything tomorrow...or the few days after that. i've accepted that i'll eventually have to submit something at some point. i'm trying to finish everything because i won't be productive during the weekend. wherein productive means doing something for school. but gawd. i'm too exhausted to care. i thank musicians everywhere for providing music that magically takes some of the load off. at least for a few minutes.

filipino movie review! why can't you write yourself? i don't think i have enough to say to make 10 motherloving pages. i guess being a movie critic is out for me. but goodness. i consider myself a poet. wherein poet means someone who uses words economically to convey the most meaning.

school in itself is not that tiring. it's the monotony that gets me. it's the routine that irks me. getting up, going to school, laughing some, getting reprimanded, eating unhealthy food, waiting for the school bus, resting a bit, doing homework, do it until you can't do it no more. MY LIFE. thanks to the trip to jakarta, the cycle will be broken and i might feel some enthusiasm about school work.

currently listening to: shooting the moon - OK go

hello. it's time to wake up again and smell the smell of wasted teenage girls. ewwww.

sorry. first normal day of school today. not really, since it's PICTURE DAY!!! i'm no rachel berry, but i did get my picture taken twice today. one for the class, and one for the theresian magazine. hooray for extracurricular activities! (mouthful, that one)

that picture with the mag saved me from a full-on nap during math class. seriously. i could not keep my eyes open. my lids were so heavy. my eye bags were so heavy. what's a girl to do?? i really tried staying awake. i even wrote done some notes just to get my brain to work. but when i looked back at them, they looked like squiggles made by a first grader or something. a friend who saw it said it was like an ant with ink, if you get that at all.

we got most of our exam results today and my results weren't so bad. they're not so great either. EITHER. EITHER. one more time. EITHER. (eco exam reference)

another false alarm for the ateneo admission results. will they please stop teasing my frazzled nerves? haha. not really. i'm nervous but you should see some of the others. they're total wrecks over this. hahaha!

i realize i have homework to do. so tata for now.

*sigh* will my term paper please write itself? thanksssss!

currently listening to: fall out boy

the most productive thing i did today was to go to the airport to see my eldest sister off to jakarta. it gets sadder every time. you'd expect it to be easier since it's the fourth time we've gone to the aiport to see her off. i guess we all just really want her here. at home. with us.

the other productive thing i did was to continue reading ayn rand's the fountainhead. it's very interesting but the intellectual talk that takes up to a whole page sometimes make me want to just scan the thing. howard roark is a cool guy. the only wrong thing about him is his first name. howard. i don't mean to offend anyone named howard. it's just such an old name. that i somehow managed to attach to a loser. it's weird. but there is nothing loser-ish about howard roark at all.

it must be time to get back to reality and start doing my homework. i've done 3 of them so that makes me feel better about myself. but there are 3 more that makes me feel like a total - there's no other word for it - loser. maybe my name should be howard.

okay. deep breaths. that's what tomorrow is for anyway. january 4th. cramming day.

so, toodles to ate heny for now.

toodles to living like a slob.

toodles to so many other things.

yet so many things stay the same.

currently listening to: time - cute is what we aim for

so, what happened today? today was bad so let's start with yesterday. the high school mass started near 8:00 because the priest was late. it was the first time that i really thought a mass wouldn't push through. well, the priest arrived and all was well and good. my part in the mass, which was to bring the tarpaulin of our lady of guadalupe to the stage was a major fail. my class adviser refused to go to the middle of the aisle, where the tarps were at so we started really late. first pa naman kami. gawd. stress that i don't really need! we unrolled the tarp and made our way to the stage. i stumbled on the way (in front of the principal and the special guest no less). hanging the tarp on the stand proved to be more difficult than it looked like. gawd. the mass ended and we had to change to our PE uniforms to practice for the batch dancing. it was hot in the lawn. very hot. after that, we were finally given our lunch break and daryll made me wait for her to take a make-up test in religion. she treated me to lunch afterwards, which is only fitting since it was a 20-minute (or more) wait. songfest practice ensued and we just practiced until it started sounding better and better. come performance time, i could feel the heat from the stage lights. we didn't win the songfest. boo. but it's okay. you can't win 'em all, right?

so today, we did the batch dancing during recess. it was fun and the mother superior/general gave a really good speech. right before the dance started, an ant bit me on one of my toes and it started swelling like crazy. i have no idea why that ant bit me. for fun? did i step on one of his/her family members? goodness! it's still blown up right now. after the dancing, we had our long test in trigonometry and it was...fine, i guess. i stared at test 2 for a long time before i remembered how to do it. then we had a quiz in english and then the practical exam in computer. i totally failed that one. sigh. goodbye computer grades. i really suck at math. programming is fine but mixing those two together is beyond me. eco period was fun as usual. lots of laughing. haha!

the first order of business when i got home was to finish the PE cloth. i finished it but it didn't turn out as planned. oh well. nobody said it had to be a masterpiece. i'm just happy with the fact that it's colored and is wearable. it's not project runway material, but it'll do for my PE class. i should totally take a picture and post it on here. that's after i find pictures for the micropaper due on friday.

good lawrd! i'm only one person!

currently listening to: who i am - nj&ta

i forced myself to finish my physics experiment yesterday without using the internet. it was really crappy. but all experiments are crappy anyway IF YOU DIDN'T ACTUALLY DO ANYTHING. which reminds me that i have to figure out the specific gravity of kerosene. i did some more homework, like reading the short stories for filipino. they weren't so bad. they're great for if you wanna get some sleep. better than the inferno, even. i've yet to capture pascal's principle in a photo. i must get around to that since the idea interests me. two long quizzes tomorrow or something. they're really trying to crush our souls, aren't they?

i woke up this morning at 6(-ish) to get ready for the ustet. which my mom reminded me about yesterday. i totally forgot i still had to do that. surprisingly, i wasn't groggy because of the Pluma-induced nap i had yesterday afternoon. my mom was so paranoid about traffic that i got there at 7 AM. turns out she wanted to go to mass there already. but when we saw that students were already lining up to get inside the building, she told me to go line up immediately. like the giant dork that i am, i was the first one in my assigned room. i got there earlier than the examiner. talk about an eager beaver. the exam didn't start for another hour and ten minutes. so i was just sitting there, helpless against the air conditioners that seemed to be on full blast. one of the students asked the examiner to lessen the cool, but the examiner just asked a janitor to flip the blinds up. so the cool air descended on the opposite wall, where i was. brrr. the exam itself was pretty basic. so by the time, the science part rolled around, i was too bored to think harder.

i planned to do my PE skirt moments ago, but i got distracted (ahb-viously). my mom's been bugging me to go christmas shopping. "to avoid the crowds" she says. if my mom really wanted us to avoid the crowds, we should have shopped last week, when it was still november. what do i want for christmas anyway? here's one: a bibliotease shirt, TEAM GALE DISTRICT 12 (or TEAM PEETA. i still can't decide :D i haven't read catching fire yet. boo!)

currently listening to: change - the young veins

i have a ton of homework today. looking at my to do list makes me dizzy.

we had our palihan yesterday. it was fun but it felt like the teachers just made us do activities because we couldn't go to the communities yet. i spent half the day in the computer lab with michelle doing this cartoon GIF. it was fun because she's so crazy but i kinda wished that we were with the rest of the class. our presentation turned out really well because we were really organized for once. all thanks to our adviser who was really hands-on about everything.

tomorrow, i may have my first assignment as a layout artist. i'm really nervous because whatever i come up with may get on the magazine for everyone to see. i'm also nervous that what i come up with may suck and will never ever see the light of day.

entrance exams prove to be less stressful than the actual application process. endless blanks to be filled. ugh. i bet this is what it's like to be an adult. nooooooo! here's looking at you DLSU and UST. UP and ADMU were equally stressful. but it's over and done with now. hasta la vista. XD

greek mythology character - Oedipus
Kabanata sa El Fili - Si Basilio (6)

"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans" - John Lennon

currently listening to: hot - avril of the lavignes

It would be a regular school day today, if we didn't have the card distribution. We got let off at 2:30 and my mom arrived soon after. That's not really exciting. But what happened before that might be worth telling.

my mom actually forgot to pay my tution so she handed me a check and told me to go to the treasurer's office. damn. that sucks since i alreayd told her to pay two weeks ago. this reminds me of a conversation i had ---

friend: (sees long queue of parents at the TO) bakit kaya ngayon pa lang sila nagbabayad?
me: they probably have better things to do
friend: ...better things to do vs. their priorities...?

come to think of it, my these parents might consider other activities higher up on the priority list than 'paying for daughter's tuition'. it's possible. just look at my mom.

i don't blame her though. i can easily think of better things to do than paying for band fest tickets, class pictures, etc.

in other news, research is killing mikka.

currently listening to: sophomore slump or comeback of the year

in the spirit of the forthcoming fall out boy concert, i have changed my layout. no, i did not choose something that has a picture of them. that's just tacky. :)

i really have to finish my part in the script for MPAD. so, ciao for now.

PEACE

currently listening to: silence

ever noticed how my recent posts always seem to have a bit of homework splashed in?

i have.

the workload for tonight is enough to last me until next year. lots of things left to do.

i don't even know how i can still blog at this rate.

goodnight.

currently listening to: mad - ne-yo

molarity, molality, mole fraction...

the only moles i can understand are the kind that are found on your face.

"don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall?!"

that song is awesome. 'nuff said.

we're gonna have a quiz in chemistry tomorrow. too bad the topic is something i don't understand anymore. the internet's explanation is so much more complicated than what we were taught. or maybe it's always been that complicated. who knows? i sure as hell don't get it.

palihan today. same same in the community. nothing out of the ordinary happened which is such a shame. the one thing that changed was that the little boys weren't wrestling. i guess the fight-starters were absent today. a good thing, nonetheless. we saw horton hears a who in the grade school AVR. the movie is pretty funny. nice, uncomplicated plot. it felt like the whole time we were watching, my classmates were waiting for jesse mccartney's character to speak (Jojo). and when he did, they all screamed in girlish delight so they didn't hear his voice anyway. we even watched the closing credits just to see this: Jojo - Jesse McCartney. in the end, we didn't. haha. but it was still all good.

the movie Twilight is opening the theaters here today. i have a classmate who's gonna watch it today. that's so crazy because we have 5 quizzes tomorrow (which i have yet to study for). i'm planning on watching 3 movies in a day with a friend of mine. hope it pushes through. can't wait for the headaches.

i guess i really didn't get to tell you about my outbound trip. it was super fun. lots of walking and counting involved. after the first 3 lakes, the idea of counting our steps went out the window. the third lake took a staggering 720 steps. lemme tell you, they keep getting farther and farther and farther. the fun part was the mud. i had a bad stomach that day so i couldn't walk as fast as i could (i had to walk fast to keep up with the people in front of me. btw, mikka can be a champion power walker if she wanted). at one point, i couldn't see the people ahead of me so i picked up the pace. bad idea on a slippery path. my foot got stuck in the mud like vacuum twice. since no one was directly in front of me, i didn't know which parts of the path were soft (likely to swallow my foot up) or firm (good to step on). luckily for me, i had the people behind me helping me up whenever i fell down (they also laughed at me a lot).

shower time was...interesting. i forgot to bring a towel and a pair of slippers. i bought a pair from a roadside vendor. it's weird what people sell on the roadsides these days. the towel situation couldn't be helped so i made do with the face towel i brought. i guess i can officially say that i took a shower with 4 other girls. desperate times...desperate times.

currently listening to: bulag, pipi, at bingi - freddie aguilar (on repeat)

i've been weeding out my homework. my favorite has to be the algebra homework. linear programming is seriously fun (compared to all the rest, that is. wouldn't want you to think i enjoy numbers). it's great to apply all this crap LIs into real life. makes much more sense that way. in relation to math, i thoroughly love watching million to one on the discovery channel. what are the odds, right?

i just read Robert Frost's "The Road Not Taken" for my english class. i read a professional analysis of the poem so i'll have something to say during the discussion. turns out, Mr. Frost is saying that the roads are the same. he can just tell that in the future, if he ever encounters those two roads, he will be taking the other one, just to see what would happen. niiiice. i thought that it was about him taking the road less traveled if he had a choice. apparently, it's a common misconception.

enough about homework. i went to the dentist today. he told me i had one more month to go before the braces come off. then i'm off to retainer land. thank goodness. i'm kind of over the whole braces thing now. :# nah. i'm still loving it.

bought a purple shirt today for the outbound. i know we're not supposed to but i couldn't resist. i'm gonna buy another one if i can. 0.0 (ugh. impulsive shopping)

went to mass today as well with my mum. not gonna go tomorrow. lotsa studying to do. B)

currently listening to: i'll run - the cab

my sister is all annoyed downstairs because someone parked in her spot here in the village. we can't find the owner. she doesn't want to have to move it again later because she's taking my other sister's spot right now.

anyway, i was just doing my homework for Filipino due tomorrow. we have to find someone who has a disability but was able to succeed anyway. naturally, i don't know anyone who fits that description except Apolinario Mabini. i asked my mom and she told me about Padacas. i did some research and that turned out to be a life saver. thanks, mom.

Grace Padacas is impressive. check out her wikipedia page.

the report cards were given out two days ago. my grades turned out really well. my chem lecture grade improved substantially, thank heavens. my computer also got a 7-point upgrade. yeah, men!! the only bad thing is my chem lab grade, which decreased by a point. and the biggest surprise of all...my algeb grade climbed up a notch. can't get it any better than that. :)

my school will have a PAASCU accreditation this coming week. the school has had a lot of minor improvements. the changes have made stc look 10x better. hopefully, changes in my school don't have to be brought on by an accreditation board.

my class is going to have our field trip on friday next week. it hasn't sunk in yet. what i mean is, i'm not feeling the excitement i normally associate with a field trip. hmm, i wonder why that is? could be the onslaught of homework we are expected to stay on top of.

our class was chosen to do the magic show. frankly, i was hoping that the other class would get it. yes, i have more faith in them than in my own class. i guess that makes me...a traitor(?). IMO, the storyline we have right now is kinda weak. it needs extensive work before it fly with our audience (freshmen and sophomores).

finished the chinese fan dance today (chinese!). it was all going really well until we got to the line performances. line one (sadly, that's my line) messed up the circle formation part. some veered to the right, some veered to the left. it was funny but i'm guessing that didn't do a lot for our grade.

the other palihan leaders officially launched the PASKO drive. it was really successful. :)

happy birthday to aira, patplan, ms. gineta, and all the others. November seems to be the birthday month, eh.

that's it really. i just felt like blogging today :)

i just discovered tumbleblogs.

i have found that on the internet, one thing always leads to another. so i discovered that today. my intent in opening the computer was to find out if there was an easier way to solve using cramer's rule. so how did i end up searching for tumbleblogs?

so i woke up this morning, still suffering from the coughs. i had iced tea and banana cue for breakfast. ooh. healthy. i need to be getting back to my homework right now. 11 more numbers to go for 13-3. bleh. i also need to check the palihan notebooks. ahh. i don't really mind that one. it's part of the job.

been meaning to get these lyrics for a while now. bit different for PATD. i'm so glad we don't have school tomorrow. that means that there's no PE. gawd. i hate PE. i suck so much at sports. i wish PE was just plain exercising, not all this sporty stuff. i still haven't done my religion and computer project. goodness. i'm gonna have to get it all done tomorrow.

everybody's who's online in ym is doing their book report. i'm proud to say i'm finished with mine. excellent work, i must say. the drawings suck but that's coz i'm no artist. advice to those people in ym still doind their homework...sign out! you'll never get done if you constantly check the status messages of everyone else online.

i still have to practice my song for the music project tomorrow. i got the lyrics down and the melody is down pat. the only problem is the singing and playing part. why on earth am i such a talentless bum? people constantly ask me what i would do in a talent show...and i smile and say nothing. good god! i need to find a talent. god! how can you have overlooked me? anyway, singing is easy enough. i actually wouldn't be worried at all if not for the playing the piano part. do we really have to do it both hands? if not, then i'm totally set.

i am such a materialistic person. i want so many things at this moment. it really makes me wish i have tons of money that i can do whatever i want with. i want to win the lottery by buying just one ticket. gawd. it's never gonna happen is it?

i hate being with the debate team. it really doesn't matter if they kick me out. i'm not having fun. it used to be but it's just a farce now. i learned a lot though. thanks.

school is almost over. nooooooooooooooooooo!

udpate:
current food addiction: snyder's of hanover
recent movies seen: jumper and the spiderwick chronicles (all in one day with my dad at gateway)
recent accomplishments: finished book report
recent failures: math long test, music project
newest friend: bien from the stc-marist interaction (he's a professional ice skater...what does that say about him?)
recent fights: none
newest purchase: puma hoodie
new favorite band: jonas brothers
new crush: nick jonas
favorite song: just friends

ugh...still have to read the effing kangkong