currently listening to: love is gonna getcha - lucy woodward

it's amazing how tired i am versus how tired i feel. i feel like there is an enormous weight on my shoulders to get everything done. and the more time i spend thinking about what i have to do, the more time i waste. i want to taste freedom once more. wherein freedom means not having to submit anything tomorrow...or the few days after that. i've accepted that i'll eventually have to submit something at some point. i'm trying to finish everything because i won't be productive during the weekend. wherein productive means doing something for school. but gawd. i'm too exhausted to care. i thank musicians everywhere for providing music that magically takes some of the load off. at least for a few minutes.

filipino movie review! why can't you write yourself? i don't think i have enough to say to make 10 motherloving pages. i guess being a movie critic is out for me. but goodness. i consider myself a poet. wherein poet means someone who uses words economically to convey the most meaning.

school in itself is not that tiring. it's the monotony that gets me. it's the routine that irks me. getting up, going to school, laughing some, getting reprimanded, eating unhealthy food, waiting for the school bus, resting a bit, doing homework, do it until you can't do it no more. MY LIFE. thanks to the trip to jakarta, the cycle will be broken and i might feel some enthusiasm about school work.

currently listening to: shooting the moon - OK go

hello. it's time to wake up again and smell the smell of wasted teenage girls. ewwww.

sorry. first normal day of school today. not really, since it's PICTURE DAY!!! i'm no rachel berry, but i did get my picture taken twice today. one for the class, and one for the theresian magazine. hooray for extracurricular activities! (mouthful, that one)

that picture with the mag saved me from a full-on nap during math class. seriously. i could not keep my eyes open. my lids were so heavy. my eye bags were so heavy. what's a girl to do?? i really tried staying awake. i even wrote done some notes just to get my brain to work. but when i looked back at them, they looked like squiggles made by a first grader or something. a friend who saw it said it was like an ant with ink, if you get that at all.

we got most of our exam results today and my results weren't so bad. they're not so great either. EITHER. EITHER. one more time. EITHER. (eco exam reference)

another false alarm for the ateneo admission results. will they please stop teasing my frazzled nerves? haha. not really. i'm nervous but you should see some of the others. they're total wrecks over this. hahaha!

i realize i have homework to do. so tata for now.

*sigh* will my term paper please write itself? thanksssss!

currently listening to: twilight soundtrack

twilight is my guilty pleasure. but does it have to be? ugh.

total relaxation from the moment i got home. this day was way too stressful.

it wasn't the talumpati, the computer program, or the algebra quiz that made this day classifiable as one of the worst days ever.

it was the speech symposium. i was so hoping we wouldn't get picked. as luck would have it, we did. and i wasn't even prepared. i made a total fool of myself and my group mates. i so wish that it could have happened differently. i wish i could be a different person at that time.

oh well. it's over. i'm just gonna have to do better at the speaking task thing. make sure everything goes as smoothly as possible.

i have realized that the merchant of venice can be understood without outside help. i so regret spending my 200 bucks for the 'no fear' version. maybe it'll be of help during the play production. hopefully.

there's that fit-well thing tomorrow. i don't wanna go. but as my mom said...do we have a choice? i'll just have to stick it out. hopefully it rains. hard.

my day is ruined. go have fun with yours.

currently listening to: silence

ever noticed how my recent posts always seem to have a bit of homework splashed in?

i have.

the workload for tonight is enough to last me until next year. lots of things left to do.

i don't even know how i can still blog at this rate.

goodnight.

today was a really tiring day. which fittingly describes every day of school. there are quizzes, lessons, and activities that are done daily. homework is rapidly piling up. i don't know about you, but i feel like spending all my time doing nothing for once. i have a semi-splitting headache and i have no idea what to do next. every time i do something that isn't school work, i feel as if i should be doing school work. no wonder my body clock is all messed up. can the voice of responsibility inside my head please shut up for a few hours? that would be awesome, thanks.

no classes tomorrow because of Ramadan. i'm gonna spend the free time studying for the upcoming exams.




not.

today is day one of the recognition day practices. i got up at 6AM for the first time. the last time being the last day school. i felt sleepy and groggy for most of the practice. we didn't get much done today. the teachers can't seem to stick to one particular method of walking up the stage and getting our certificates. they seemed very unprepared. hopefully things get better tomorrow.

ysabel lost her wallet during lunch. we never got it back. hopefully it turns up tomorrow. there was some drama with my mom and sister as to how i'm supposed to get home. apparently, neither of them care if i get home or not. they're both too wrapped up in their own affairs to worry about mine. i am so lucky to have someone like belay who is willing to give me a ride home. hmm. maybe she deserves a gift. just to let her know i'm not taking her kindness for granted. a cupcake, perhaps? krispy kreme donuts? i know she'd appreciate something edible.

i guess my radical haircut shocked people for about two seconds. i got used to it. so did they. :) i'm not mcloving it but it's fine until it grows longer and i can go back to being my old self. :D

i'm so tired and sleepy. so i guss that's all for now. bye!