currently listening to: decode - paramore

after loads of back and forth, daryll and i finally got to watch 2 movies today.

example of back and forth (forgive the text speak):

Daryll.: Andrea, pano nga pala tayo uuwi mamayang gabi? And...Unless ihahatid mo ako sa bahay ng gabi, 2 movies lang papanoorin natin...
Andrea: Cge. Ako bahala.
Daryll: Dude, anong floor ka? Papasok pa lang me.
Andrea: ...

after all the drama, we were able to watch the movies in peace.

Bolt and Twilight. Popcorn and Fries. Pepsi and Mountain Dew.

oh yeah.

Bolt was nice enough. John Travolta's voice was great as Bolt's. i think Miley Cyrus got the part because she's...well...Miley Cyrus. her voice didn't seem to fit with the look of Penny. Bolt is adorable. as well as Mittens and definitely Rhino. i really like the part where Mittens was teaching Bolt how to beg. i think i died of Bolt's cuteness.

Twilight was really funny at parts. i enjoyed watching it with Daryll. if you asked me to describe the movie in one word, it would be "AWKWARD". it kinda felt like the movie picked the favorite parts and acted it out. it didn't feel like it could stand alone. the author of the book made a cameo in the movie. i know her from her picture in the books. she just couldn't stay out of it, eh? the ending suggested a sequel. we thought it was rosalie at first, but we finally decided that it had to be victoria. for someone who hadn't read the books, daryll got it pretty well. she even sensed that jasper was new to the cullen's lifestlye based on his reaction to bella. i guess the movie might stand alone after all. my favorite part would have to be when they arrived at school together and everyone was staring at them. major teen movie ingredient.

in other news, daryll has developed a crush for robert pattinson. i thought the guy who looked like jasper was really good-looking. eh, anyway, that's it. so sad that we didn't get to see Madagascar. everyone's been saying that it was really funny. tsk. miley cyrus pulled me in.

currently listening to: nothing

woke up super early today. super early considering it's a saturday. i was so excited to go to the movies with D. but...plans change so we'll do it tomorrow.

thanks to this little falling through, my mom and i had another bonding session. our first this year. it wasn't so bad. except that i got teary-eyed. i'll allow that since this is like the first time all over again.

if you don't know what i'm talking about...it's probably better that way.

i just watched the 2006 version of The Girl Who Leapt Through Time. i learned about it when i was browsing through another person's blog. so off i went to watch it. it's pretty good. very funny at times. the ending was kinda disappointing though. i guess i'm just used to having a feel-good happy ending all the time.

back to the old regime. g'night.

i changed the look of the blog because i felt that the last one was so depressed and sad. this one isn't very exciting and it isn't sad, so i like it. does that make the layout like me?

friday, june 11. i finally got to treat my friends to a birthday party. it's not really a party because we just ate, but it was fun all the same. we ate at yellow cab along banawe and joked around a lot. nothing really beats just hangin'.

right after, i had to get my things ready for the leadership training. i panicked at one point because i couldn't find any pajamas.

the leadership training was tiring but fun all the same. we had an anticipated mass that seemed to take forever to finish. the team building activities were fun. gawd. i really don't feel like talking about it. too early for jokes.

it's sunday today and i went home at around 10:30 from school. i immediately took a shower and i was sooo ready to go to bed. but alas! my mom tells me to get dressed because we're going to mass at christ the king and then we'll have lunch at gerry's grill afterwards. apparently, it's my brother's despedida lunch because he's leaving for dubai on friday. we might not see him for two years so we have to have a despedida. (*he's not a DH/nurse/caregiver. he's going to dubai as an architect.)

and now, i've just finished the reflection paper on human sexuality and my adv. alg. homework. all that's left to do is study for my english LQ, 2 chem quizzes, and a filipino quiz.

ok. cool.

it didn't take long to get organized. finally, everyone just dropped their various concerns and let loose. we hung out at daryll's house. getting there was very annoying. manila is so congested with traffic. and i had the bad luck of having a driver who is so calm and not at all hurried even if i was shooting him my most evil glares. needless to say, i got there and the good times began. belay, daryll, and i took a tricycle to their house from mcdo retiro (which is under renovation at the moment. mcdo, not their house).

everything was going normally, but an addition to our group was daryll's brother, darwin. he's very much like daryll, only in the 'little brother' form. he ended up joining us with playing around in the computer, playing cards, listening to the jonas brothers, and making cookies. if i were in his place, i would have seriously stayed upstairs and i would not have joined in the affairs of my older sister. i guess that's the difference between their sibling-to-sibling relationship and mine.

daryll ordered pizza and we pigged out. we also made cookies. darwin called them the 'mutant cookies. or was it 'mutilated'? i forget. definitely something to that effect. the cookies were good. i would say that they were definitely undercooked, but it still tasted fabulous.

we also played lots of 'Super Text Twist'. daryll was really good at guessing the longest word...

***WHAT? Ashlee Simpson and Pete Wentz are engaged! officially! i can't believe it! i didn't think they were the marrying type. somehow, i still see ashlee simpson as a teenager. i guess i missed the fact that she's 22 now. wow. this is news to me.***

ok, back to MY life. we reached up to level 40 with 120,000++ points. we rule at that game. mostly daryll, but it's really a group effort :D we also watched lots of daryll's "movies" made with Windows Movie Maker. she's really taking that stuff seriously. belay and i also got a pretty good idea of how much daryll likes the jonas brothers. she's downloaded virtually all of the songs the jonas brothers ever made. she even has a little backstory for every song. total addict. probably more than me when i was addicted to fall out boy. we layed lots of card games with their bow wow cards. i lost a lot so that just goes to show how terrible i am at cards.

it was fun day. i love that i got to see the two of them again. it's been too long, dahhlings.

next up: belay's house!

today is day one of the recognition day practices. i got up at 6AM for the first time. the last time being the last day school. i felt sleepy and groggy for most of the practice. we didn't get much done today. the teachers can't seem to stick to one particular method of walking up the stage and getting our certificates. they seemed very unprepared. hopefully things get better tomorrow.

ysabel lost her wallet during lunch. we never got it back. hopefully it turns up tomorrow. there was some drama with my mom and sister as to how i'm supposed to get home. apparently, neither of them care if i get home or not. they're both too wrapped up in their own affairs to worry about mine. i am so lucky to have someone like belay who is willing to give me a ride home. hmm. maybe she deserves a gift. just to let her know i'm not taking her kindness for granted. a cupcake, perhaps? krispy kreme donuts? i know she'd appreciate something edible.

i guess my radical haircut shocked people for about two seconds. i got used to it. so did they. :) i'm not mcloving it but it's fine until it grows longer and i can go back to being my old self. :D

i'm so tired and sleepy. so i guss that's all for now. bye!

we're gonna leave for puerto prinsesa tomorrow. by 'we', i mean my parents, me, and my brother. i pray that we will have fun, because there is no such guarantee. puerto prinsesa is in palawan. we will be flying in from manila. emphasize 'flying in'. we hardly go on trips that require us to get on a plane. we're more of the roadtrip kind. i haven't packed properly yet. which reminds me. i packed my whole closet because we'll be staying there for a week. a week. that's too long to go with only your parents and brother around. i'm not excited at all, to be honest. it should be fine. it should be fine. i hope it will be fine.

yesterday, i hung out with B at the mall. just the two of us. it was so weird. it was just the two of us. i felt eerie about the sudden freedom we were given. i remember ashley tisdale. on one of the commercials on the disney channel, she was asked: when was the first time you ever felt grown up? she said 'when it was just me and my bestfriend at the mall. all alone.' yesterday, i didn't exactly feel all grown up. it was fun. we just walked around the mall and tried to decide what to do. my feet ached from all the walking so i didn't enjoy it as much as i should have. at about 5, we went back to B's hotel room. haha. that sounds a bit wrong. we watched juno on her mom's laptop. we were enjoying watching it until the laptop ran out of battery. we called daryll up in her home. turns out the hotel charges the guests for phone calls. it's Php 19/minute. how crazy is that? we didn't even realize how much a call costs until my mom asked. so we ended up just watching tv and dancing and singing along whenever a JB song came on. we also played hide and seek. B is terrible at it. the first time i was the 'it'. she didn't hide fast enough. the next time around, i hid behind the curtains. i heard B opening the closet doors. she even came close to finding me. but sadly, she didn't. when she still didn't find me, she just gave up and let me keep on hiding. i realizd she wasn't looking for me anymore so i came out. let it be known that B sucks at hide and seek.

i think someone has been let loose inside my head and ate everything up (sam!). honestly. i am considering changing url's. but what the hell for? she already read everything. i just hope to those above that she keeps her mouth shut. i doubt what i've written is hardly something you can easily forget. goodness. i just thought of an awesome reason to change url's. what if she spreads it to everyone she knows and visits it regularly? i'm hoping she doesn't, but i'm totally paranoid. ahh! so, any ideas for a new url? i knew it was a mistake to put the link on the badass blog. stupid, stupid, andrea. right now, i need to study for bio and english. goodness. tons of memorizations. the math exam was hard. i didn't finish. about 5 blanks? 10 wild guesses. 10 mistakes? and that's just the optimistic estimation. hopefully i don't fail it. i'm on rocky ground in math as it is. the filipino exam was as could be expected. odd man out, etcetera, etcetera. the questions were very general which was good.

today was regie's last day. i'm really gonna miss her. we've gone a long way. during grade school, she was someone i borrowed a folder from whn i forgot to bring one. on the first day of high school, she was the one who told me to get out of my seat because a new student has been added to the list (in the politest tone of voice. polite, not friendly). since then, after being forced to do countless number of projects together (because her class number is 3, mine is 4) we've grown substantially closer (i admit, i don't really know what 'substantially' means exactly). it's been fun to make her laugh. i've found she's likelier to laugh at corny jokes than the really elaborate, witty jokes. not that she doesn't get it, she just prefers the corny jokes. hey, that's her sense of humor. come to think of it, all senses of humor appeal to me, except the 'dead baby' jokes (ugh). she's been really fun to hang out with and she's good company. i realize that i'm really gonna miss what we shared. she just turned 15 on the eleventh. she's leaving for bali, indonesia tomorrow for her vacation. (*because of a not so wide jeepney strike, classes were suspended--hell of a lot good that did) so she won't be taking the remaining exams. ahh! miss her already.

i dread tomorrow because we'll have the SEG evaluations then. i have no idea if i'm still part of the debate team. goodness. do i sit with them or the SEG now? ahhh! joining the debate team was a big mistake. urgh!! better let it go now, need to focus on study materials. see ya.

word for the day: paramour-courtesan :)

my friends have made a new blog for all of us to post on. it's pretty cool. the url is badass. check it out. exams are next week. why am i not studying?

currently listening to bleeding love by leona lewis. you can just hear the pain in her voice. i hear this song all the time but it still tugs at me heart.

"i keep bleeding..."

life for me is a routine now. nothing unexpected ever happens. but i'm still occupied. let me tell you about my past week. since it's sunday now.

moday was the due date for the book report. i think my book report was fine. i just hate though that drawings were an essential part of it. it's a book report. the class is english. why do we have to express ourselves visually? shouldn't it be all about the words? monday was also the day of the music performance. the day when we perform what we have been working on for the whole year. the lyrics, the melody, and the chords. we have to sing and play the piano for this formal introduction of our creations. i practiced the day before...twice. it was pretty easy to get the tune. i practiced one (1) damn stanza. and when i got to school, everybody was like, 'i put chords on my second stanza, just in case'. damn. i didn't put chords on my second stanza, assuming we were only gonna perform the first one. but thanks heavens. god really does love me. we were only required to play 1 stanza. i'm saved. thank you! it went fine. i got 94 out of 100. not terrible. other people had belay play their song on the piano and all they had to do was sing it. i made like alicia keys and sang and played my song. oh, yeah! at first, i forgot i was supposed to sing it but i caught on :D went well, if i do say so myself.

tuesday, nothing much happened until after school. sam and i went to the computer contest. sam told me i was the only new face around. everyone was the same group as before. i was disappointed to be quite honest. sam did all the work so it was really bad. i felt like i didn't contribute anything. so sad. ugh. i hate sam. worst of all, mang anton left me. so i had no way to get home. i was left to read kangkong while waiting for my fetcher. i hung out a bit with bogart and iris. poor iris. she always has to go home so late. talked to them for a bit. in the end, kuya jay picked me up. he looked really pissed about it all. sheesh.

wednesday was pretty eventful. my groupmates for the tle cooking spent all day gathering the appropriate materials for our adolescent cooking later (that didn't come out right). we cooked sinigang na baboy, made calamansi juice, and reg made this awesome dessert - banana surprise. ms. dionisio wasn't there. we got ms. ravanes instead. there are rumors circulating that ms. dionisio is preggers. is it ture? haha. who knows. we finished early, so that's good. i made the bus. so ends wednesday. oh. one more. we had our first class debate. ms. tilos took out bio period. the motion was : THBT classes should start at 8 AM. i was the timer. ms. tilos ended up being really mad at me because i didn't clap loudly enough. gawd. she was so pissed off. moving on...

thursday. boring. we had two debates. ms. tilos didn't ask me to time anymore. lorraine got the job which was like a slap in the face. ugh. sam did really well. she could be in the debate team. seriously. friday was a good day. i was number one in the computer seat work. for once. gawd. it's seriously getting harder. i'm just glad my brain was working then. i love making the list. it's a high i can't let go of. too bad for belay. i wonder what she did wrong. she was in a bad mood all throughout recess. daryll and i tried to make her feel better by buying cheesy fries for us to share. it was still warm and yummy. yum! that kinda made her feel good. i think. i made the bus again. hooray! when i got home, i changed into my comfy house clothes and watched tv until 11. oh, yeah.

saturday, i had every intention of finding my religion project. because while i was sleeping, i dreamt that i had found it. but i couldn't remember which part of the room i found it in - in my dream. so after breakfast, i tied my hair up and prepared myself for a long search and rescue. when i looked in the ironing board (which isn't used as an ironing board anymore) i found it there under some plastic bags. goodness! it wasn't that hard. i felt kinda disappointed because i was so ready to turn my room upside down. but i still felt a good sense of accomplishment. as a matter of fact, after that, i didn't do anything at all anymore. that was enough work for one day. haha. yes, i'm that lazy. it's sunday now. i just finished my math homework. finally. i tried doing it yesterday but i couldn't figure it out. i just gotta finish my religion homework and i'm free. of course, there's still that computer project.

ugh.

lets just skip the formalities and write about what's important...me. i come back with a heavy heart and rusty typing skills. but i need to tell you something important. do you know that to this day, it still hurts me to talk about my ex-best friend. i don't know what it feels like to be dumped but i can say that i somehow have an idea. yes, it feels like she dumped me. dumped me in exchange of better and prettier friends who she can be vain with. i'm pretty sure that i don't miss her. but yet it feels like i want to be the one who did the dumping and not the other way around. i guess that's why people like to "beat it to the punch". so that it will hurt less. i treasured what i had with her. i still do. but i can't remember the "good times" that well. i remember her as a realist, pikon, playful, and my best friend. things change. i don't know her anymore. we live in two different worlds. but when i last talked to her, i can still see some of the qualities i remember shine through the glamour. i can't ask for her back because there's a wall that prevents me from reaching her. the wall created by different schools, different experiences, different friends. who can i blame?

i love her. but she can be such a pain sometimes. yes, we're talking about daryll. she's an awesome friend. but she's still human. sometimes, she just acts like a total needy, idiot. it annoys the heck out of me. i just want to scream "use your friggin' head!" sigh. still seething. dance pro has been nothing but a race to finish last from the start. what we face right now is no longer the hope of winning, but the spark of actually being able to finish the whole song. i kinda doubt it right now. thanks to our awesome teachers. the encouraging adviser, the more than helpful co-ad, and the ever responsible pe teacher. conflicts arise in the classroom because of make-up, props, and other such things. damn. saying sorry to daryll right now, dunno if she even deserves it. this is saying sorry because you want the fight to be over, not because you truly mean it. gawd, i gotta go. i can't believe they're putting school work on top of all this dancepro shhh.

i am so confused right now. its all because of debate. ahhh! since i am in the debate team, naturally, i get to compete. but i get to compete in the nashdc. it spans 5 days. 3 of which will be school days. i'm not too confident about going. apart from the fact that i am stc "e", it sucks because i feel debate is getting way too time consuming for me. the debaters are not exactly a great example. they're not outstanding students. and that's what i'm really aiming for. i want to be an os more than anything. debate used to be fun. but now i feel that its just plain work. the pressure is on and nothing or no one is encouraging me to go on. i don't want to miss school at all. what about daryll? daryll is not even a really major concern. well, she is. but you get the point. what about the missed quizzes? practices? tests? lectures? am i supposed to give that up for an extra-curricular activity. omg! what if they actually kick me off the team? that would be the shame of my life. damn. i hope they're not that harsh. debate is really becoming a stress for me. but i'm trapped. maybe next year i'll join an extra curricular activity that doesn't require so much time and energy. like the theresian mag. no bad example. like the explorers. hey, i like science! why, oh, why am i faced with problems other people don't seem to have.

fuck off, bitch! that is exactly what i want to say to a certain someone. make that, fuck off, bitches! i remembered another person who was a total bitch earlier today. i am pertaining to a certain gloria and a certain bettina. bitches in my life. little specks of insignificant dirt. let's not waste time on them.

so, what has been happening to me ever since i last posted? exactly one week ago. well, i auditioned for the debate team on the 20th. we had to say if we were pro or against and then they give us the topic. the topic they gave me was gay marriage. and i chose against. i did my best but ifelt sure my argument wasn't strong enough. i didn't even give a clear answer on the POI raised by the Debate Team coach, claire. so i was squirming in my bed for 2 nights thinking about the results of my audition. today, at dismissal, i saw the results. and yes, i did get in. HOORAY! i don't feel as excited as i probably could be because lorraine has just totally ruined it for me. and the fact that i was kinda sorta expecting it, didn't heighten my enthusiasm. so, yes, i am part of STCQC's debate team! yay!

this week, i was also obssessing over our reporting, daryll's and i. i hate daryll for not making an effort to contribute anything. she is clearly a person that does not strive for excellence. so it turns out, i get the late nights, the trouble of summarizing and she gets the ready made script and powerpoint, and the photocopying duties. i am aware of the fact that life is not fair. but i'm not going to sacrifice my grade for the sake of teaching her a lesson. sorry, jesus, me and you have different ways of making people learn the lessons in life. i console myself wit the fact that they will probably have a hard life in the workforce. sigh. i am, yet again, bitter. i could ask her to do more but i don't want to risk anything. daryll is a great friend. a horrible partner in projects.

last week, sam lent me 2 books. entitled 'angus, thongs, and full-frontal snogging' and 'on the bright side, i am now the girlfriend of a sex god'. the writing is funny but the story moves so slow. i know that it is a diary type kind of book but i read the princess diaries' and i don't find it boring at all. probably because she just writes the important things. or maybe not even important but essential to the plot. in the books by louise rennison, it includes things that are really of no importance at all. but it is funny. that much is true. well, those were the highlights of my week. take care now.

the sweet escape

gwen stefani

if i could escape

and recreate a place that's my own world

then i could be your favorite girl

forever, perfectly together

then tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?

i wanna get away (get away)

to our sweet escape

you let me down

i'm at my lowest boiling point

come help me out

i need to get me out of this joint

our gimmick to enchanted kingdom is cancelled because there's no one to chaperone. its postponed until march 21. so sad. i wanted to go so badly. i even prepared the camera, my cell, my clothes. ahhh! this so so depressing. the silver lining is, we went to see the pursuit of happyness yesterday at gateway. they were an hour late because they had to go back to mcdo retiro for daryll. daryll wasn't supposed to come because she went out with her family. and then she texts me up to ask why she wasn't invited and to go back for her. argh. and sarap pagsisipain. anyway, when they finally got there we went to eat some taco bell and go book hunting at fully booked. at 7 we went to see the movie at theater 1. the movie is an inspirational one. its good. at about 9:30, they dropped me off at the erod gate. it was fun. i just wish the EK plans were a go but they're not. hence, my wanting to escape. =(

p.s. talked to kriska after months of not talking. she called when i was in gateway. we caught up through ym. thank goodness. =)

well, i'm sorry dear blog. i have so been neglecting you for these past few days. i've been online but i haven't bothered to update. the reason? i've been watching princess hours/goong on www.youtube.com. its really bad for me but i really like it. its really funny! hehe. anyway, the title addiction is because of what sir ralph discussed with us a while ago.

cyberspace addiction. i'm apparently prone to the addiction. its freaky how people get so addicted. hehe. i'm talking. haha. i came home late today because mang anton treated us to pizza at yellow cab. it was delicious as always. poor mang anton, ate at kfc while we were spending his money on even more expensive food. it doesn't seem right that he ate at a fastfood while we ate at this high-class pizza store. we spent a thousand bucks of his money. hehe. guilty much? the second years were all very nice. ew. that sounds so wrong..in a good way of course :D

in other news, i'm very very busy! we are already presenting next week for speech! it is so nerve-wracking! we are so not prepared! with erika in the hospital, what am i to do? lord gawd, i need help! i might collapse from total exhaustion. help me! somebody save me! thankfully, tomorrow is palihan so i somewhat get a day off. :D i'll stop here, i still wanna watch goong on youtube! :D much love

p.s. sam cried. she actually cried! yesterday (feb 14) because she was so frustrated. ahh. i actually thought it was my fault. nonsense! :D