currently listening to: true colors - glee version

this had to be the longest day of the week so far. and it's only monday.

the day started out innocently enough, with a faith sharing. i really liked the faith sharing this morning because i just sat there and zoned out. eco was fun because all everyone did was crack jokes. and i actually knew something about the issue we were discussing. someone just keeps on getting on my nerves for her parasitism. can she just stop? i've accepted that i'm not the most generous person so she really shouldn't push it. i don't know what's stopping me from telling her to get lost. after all, she's the one who'll suffer in the end. stupid leech.

the physics long test was...long. i felt like i was taking the friggin' exam. i didn't know what to do for a certain test she had in there. well, we'll see. it was really a bad idea to have a discussion after that brain-draining test. nothing was getting through my skull as she discussed the formula for bernoulli's principle. which begs the question, is there another name for bernoulli's principle? calling a principle by any other name does not make it easier to stomach. english period was the same. everyone was noisy and the reporters did their thing. there had to have been a better way to discuss dante's inferno.

research was cancelled so we had trigo instead. i totally failed that quiz she gave us earlier. i studied, i really did. i just studied the wrong thing. darn. double period of religion because we're a catholic school like that. and finally filipino where we discussed "cellphone".

hung about after dismissal. as we were going home, the craziest thing happened. and i do mean crazy. i don't wanna blog about it. that's how crazy it was. crazy in a bad way. crazy. and my neck and back totally hurt because of it. pshh.

i have no idea how to do my micropaper. whatevs. it's due on friday. you know it's not homework until it's due tomorrow.

i changed the look of the blog because i felt that the last one was so depressed and sad. this one isn't very exciting and it isn't sad, so i like it. does that make the layout like me?

friday, june 11. i finally got to treat my friends to a birthday party. it's not really a party because we just ate, but it was fun all the same. we ate at yellow cab along banawe and joked around a lot. nothing really beats just hangin'.

right after, i had to get my things ready for the leadership training. i panicked at one point because i couldn't find any pajamas.

the leadership training was tiring but fun all the same. we had an anticipated mass that seemed to take forever to finish. the team building activities were fun. gawd. i really don't feel like talking about it. too early for jokes.

it's sunday today and i went home at around 10:30 from school. i immediately took a shower and i was sooo ready to go to bed. but alas! my mom tells me to get dressed because we're going to mass at christ the king and then we'll have lunch at gerry's grill afterwards. apparently, it's my brother's despedida lunch because he's leaving for dubai on friday. we might not see him for two years so we have to have a despedida. (*he's not a DH/nurse/caregiver. he's going to dubai as an architect.)

and now, i've just finished the reflection paper on human sexuality and my adv. alg. homework. all that's left to do is study for my english LQ, 2 chem quizzes, and a filipino quiz.

ok. cool.

life for me is a routine now. nothing unexpected ever happens. but i'm still occupied. let me tell you about my past week. since it's sunday now.

moday was the due date for the book report. i think my book report was fine. i just hate though that drawings were an essential part of it. it's a book report. the class is english. why do we have to express ourselves visually? shouldn't it be all about the words? monday was also the day of the music performance. the day when we perform what we have been working on for the whole year. the lyrics, the melody, and the chords. we have to sing and play the piano for this formal introduction of our creations. i practiced the day before...twice. it was pretty easy to get the tune. i practiced one (1) damn stanza. and when i got to school, everybody was like, 'i put chords on my second stanza, just in case'. damn. i didn't put chords on my second stanza, assuming we were only gonna perform the first one. but thanks heavens. god really does love me. we were only required to play 1 stanza. i'm saved. thank you! it went fine. i got 94 out of 100. not terrible. other people had belay play their song on the piano and all they had to do was sing it. i made like alicia keys and sang and played my song. oh, yeah! at first, i forgot i was supposed to sing it but i caught on :D went well, if i do say so myself.

tuesday, nothing much happened until after school. sam and i went to the computer contest. sam told me i was the only new face around. everyone was the same group as before. i was disappointed to be quite honest. sam did all the work so it was really bad. i felt like i didn't contribute anything. so sad. ugh. i hate sam. worst of all, mang anton left me. so i had no way to get home. i was left to read kangkong while waiting for my fetcher. i hung out a bit with bogart and iris. poor iris. she always has to go home so late. talked to them for a bit. in the end, kuya jay picked me up. he looked really pissed about it all. sheesh.

wednesday was pretty eventful. my groupmates for the tle cooking spent all day gathering the appropriate materials for our adolescent cooking later (that didn't come out right). we cooked sinigang na baboy, made calamansi juice, and reg made this awesome dessert - banana surprise. ms. dionisio wasn't there. we got ms. ravanes instead. there are rumors circulating that ms. dionisio is preggers. is it ture? haha. who knows. we finished early, so that's good. i made the bus. so ends wednesday. oh. one more. we had our first class debate. ms. tilos took out bio period. the motion was : THBT classes should start at 8 AM. i was the timer. ms. tilos ended up being really mad at me because i didn't clap loudly enough. gawd. she was so pissed off. moving on...

thursday. boring. we had two debates. ms. tilos didn't ask me to time anymore. lorraine got the job which was like a slap in the face. ugh. sam did really well. she could be in the debate team. seriously. friday was a good day. i was number one in the computer seat work. for once. gawd. it's seriously getting harder. i'm just glad my brain was working then. i love making the list. it's a high i can't let go of. too bad for belay. i wonder what she did wrong. she was in a bad mood all throughout recess. daryll and i tried to make her feel better by buying cheesy fries for us to share. it was still warm and yummy. yum! that kinda made her feel good. i think. i made the bus again. hooray! when i got home, i changed into my comfy house clothes and watched tv until 11. oh, yeah.

saturday, i had every intention of finding my religion project. because while i was sleeping, i dreamt that i had found it. but i couldn't remember which part of the room i found it in - in my dream. so after breakfast, i tied my hair up and prepared myself for a long search and rescue. when i looked in the ironing board (which isn't used as an ironing board anymore) i found it there under some plastic bags. goodness! it wasn't that hard. i felt kinda disappointed because i was so ready to turn my room upside down. but i still felt a good sense of accomplishment. as a matter of fact, after that, i didn't do anything at all anymore. that was enough work for one day. haha. yes, i'm that lazy. it's sunday now. i just finished my math homework. finally. i tried doing it yesterday but i couldn't figure it out. i just gotta finish my religion homework and i'm free. of course, there's still that computer project.

ugh.

i cannot study. seriously. i've tried and failed. i can't condition myself that exams are 3 days away. whatever happened to studying 2 weeks before the exam? what? to my surprise and utter relief, most two of my classmates haven't studied yet. great. that thought just occurred to me. this is definitely not OS behavior. why, oh why? please temptaions, go away. far from me! i need to study!!! thank goodness the radio won't work, the harry potter books are away from me, i do not own any books which i have not read...that's it. the tv and comp are wide open for my use. ahhh! why is mom not forcing me to study??? damn it!!!! i can't study at all. GOD, PLEASE HELP ME! i don't think i can do this alone. maybe by tomorrow my mind is conditioned enough for me to fully accept the consequences of not studying for the exams. dear lord, dear god, heeeeelp!