hey! just a quick post before i get ready for my FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL TOMORROW. let's see. i don't know what i'm going to wear yet and i don't even know how to get to my first class. frankly, every moment i spend not solving those problems makes me extremely anxious. but forget about that for a moment as i share what happened today.

i had to wake up at 5:30 so i could leave the house by 7. i really didn't want to be late for the orientation. (as a matter of fact, i don't ever want to be late for anything ever) i got up at that unholy hour because it was my first time to go to UP all by myself via jeepney rides and i had to give myself a lot of time to learn the route. i had to make time for the slip-ups that would undoubtedly happen to me. and this is what i have to say about that journey:

i think i'm losing the will to live.

my IV1 classmates are going to trinoma today to watch movies and hang out. for some reason, i can't find enough motivation to join them. my life sucks. i could list a few reasons, surely. but i happen to know that when there's a will, there's a way. here are some of my excuses:

SHIT. SOMEONE NEEDS TO TAKE OVER MY LIFE.

i'm just kidding! today wasn't really utter shit. at least it was better than yesterday - a day of utter shit.

there's not really that much going on. i've abandoned the treadmill but i plan to get back on it tomorrow. in a little more than a week, i'll be having my first day of college. can't go around looking fat. i've decided to really stick to it this time and be prepared. my first experience taught me a lot (plus i finally read some tips on the internet). also, i've been snacking on junk food like crazy because that's what i do when i have nothing to do. that and watch TV. i've discovered this show on velvet called make it or break it and i really like watching it. at least it's not set in some high school like 10 things i hate about you (which i tried really hard to like, but i ended up liking 90210 more. go figure.)

after going to mass, my mom and i went out for dinner at luk foo (it's awesome having a really good chinese restaurant within walking distance from our house) because she says she's too tired to cook. she called it our reward for being "help"-less for the past week. as in, we don't have a helper here in the house. it's hard because there's no one to wash the dishes, feed the pets, clean up after the pets, keep the floors clean, etc. those things that i took for granted because i never really had to do them. it's a reward dinner because my mom has managed to make me do those things (with her nagging) and i've managed to do them (with a lot of grumbling). you see, our helper's baby got really sick (she said it might be dengue) so my mom let her go home last sunday. the thing is, she said she would return on monday, and she never did. we got one text from her (since she doesn't have a cellphone or a landline) that said that no one was around to watch her kids.  it's really terrible because we've gotten used to her and she was becoming a real asset to the day to day activities here in the house.

oh well. mom hired a part-time helper for now, just to keep the house clean. sheesh. a'ight. i gotta go. gotta have some "me" time. (rolls eyes)

currently listening to: we'll be alright - travis mccoy

so, hey! i said i would post more so here i am. i even logged into blogger before i checked my tumblr which is a first for these past few months. today started out like my other days. check it out.

that sounds really bad but i guess that's how life is for me. i'm home alone most of the time and i don't have a lot to do. i usually just eat and eat and eat.

that got me thinking. how am i supposed to look good in any of my clothes if i'm fat? so after watching cadillac records on HBO, i decided to lay off the nissin chocolate wafers for a while and go use our treadmill machine. the computer thing on our treadmill machine is broken because it was attacked by ondoy. but it still works, you just don't get any of the stats like how far you're going or your speed or how many calories you've burned. i decided to just put some running shoes on, crank up my ipod and start running. bad idea. the treadmill was inclined and i don't think that's good for someone who's just starting out. i would have fixed it but i didn't know how to do it manually. so i say to myself, run for an hour then do it again tomorrow.

i lasted for less than 30 minutes. halfway through i was dripping with sweat (i didn't have a towel with me and i was too lazy to go up to my room to get one. after all, i was on a roll.) and the music coming out of my ipod wasn't jiving with the high energy i needed to finish the whole hour.

so i've decided to just google some tips for a treadmill workout and make a playlist that's full of upbeat songs. there. i'll try again tomorrow.

but right now, let me be sad for missing 3/4 of the latest episode of glee on ETC. the only thing that makes me kind of happy right now is it's the finale of american idol in less than an hour. booyah!

*i just ate a cinnamon roll and half a bottle of pringles. good thing i worked out today :))

currently listening to: on to the next one - jay-z

hey! it's been a while since i wrote on this blog. all i do on the internet lately is reblog stuff on tumblr. it's crazy. i remember a time when i said that my tumblr account would be for posting pictures that i don't think is relevant to the purpose of this blog. and now, my tumblr has taken over my whole life. i don't mind that much though since i don't have too much to write. my life is that boring.

so the last post ended with my enrollment for college. let's continue with celebrations now because there was a lot of that going on.

MOTHER'S DAY. to celebrate this hallmark holiday, my sister and i got our mom a cake. it's just the two of us this time so we didn't get to do much. we actually celebrated it on the 8th since ate ida had to go on duty at the medical city. i also made my mom a card/poster thing that i put op on the hallway mirror so everyone would see :D

SAM'S 17TH. ahhh! sam's birthday. on the day itself, i just greeted her through text since i wouldn't be able to see her that day. the next day was where the real celebration began because we went to trinoma for the partay. so the movie we saw was nightmare on elm street (after much debate between that and miley cyrus' the last song). the movie itself wasn't scary. it was the suspense that had me covering my eyes halfway. after that we ate at taco bell. while we were waiting for the food to arrive, koko, daryll, and i snuck out saying we were headed to the bathroom while we got sam a cake at red ribbon. we just joined forces because the three of us didn't get her a birthday gift. (sorry, sam! i wanted to get her this shirt that had the word LONDON written on it in bold. the lettering was a loud neon green. but i decided against it because the style of the shirt had this wraparound thingy on it and it just didn't look good) anyway, here's what we had written on it:

ATE IDA'S 27TH. so after sam's party, i had to get ready for dinner out with my family to celebrate ate ida's birthday at this restaurant in tomas morato. we went to yakimix, this new teppanyaki restaurant that offers japanese and korean cuisine. i had fun cooking the food and all that. we even saw polo ravales in there with his girlfriend. is he even in showbiz anymore? my dad was really annoyed at this one guy who keeps cleaning out the lobster every time they refill it. so rude. some respect for the other people who want to eat lobster too! jeezus. i checked out the reviews on the restaurant beforehand and it was really mixed. some enjoyed themselves and promised to return while others swore it was the worst dining experience they've ever had. i liked the restaurant though and i'd recommend it. we probably won't be going back anytime soon because my mom really doesn't like to go to buffet restaurants any more.

so that's it really. the rest of my days have been super boring and very routine. i was wrong you know when i said driving with my dad was the most stressful thing i've ever experienced. turns out, driving with my sister is 10x that stress. every move i make is scrutinized in a very bitchy manner. i hope she loosens up next time. i really dread having to drive with her in the car. *shudders*

13 days to go until college starts. but i heard on the news that deped is pushing the start of classes of public schools to the 15th. i wonder if that affects my school. but then again, it's CHED that has the final word on that now....i think.

a'ight. g'night. i'll try to blog more often and tumb'l less. :)