currently listening to: fall out boy

the most productive thing i did today was to go to the airport to see my eldest sister off to jakarta. it gets sadder every time. you'd expect it to be easier since it's the fourth time we've gone to the aiport to see her off. i guess we all just really want her here. at home. with us.

the other productive thing i did was to continue reading ayn rand's the fountainhead. it's very interesting but the intellectual talk that takes up to a whole page sometimes make me want to just scan the thing. howard roark is a cool guy. the only wrong thing about him is his first name. howard. i don't mean to offend anyone named howard. it's just such an old name. that i somehow managed to attach to a loser. it's weird. but there is nothing loser-ish about howard roark at all.

it must be time to get back to reality and start doing my homework. i've done 3 of them so that makes me feel better about myself. but there are 3 more that makes me feel like a total - there's no other word for it - loser. maybe my name should be howard.

okay. deep breaths. that's what tomorrow is for anyway. january 4th. cramming day.

so, toodles to ate heny for now.

toodles to living like a slob.

toodles to so many other things.

yet so many things stay the same.