our dance is so far from winning. that is the sad fact. during the year-level practice, we totally failed and didn't do anything for the last minute. a lot of us cried, but i was always just on the verge of tears. i stopped myself from crying because, i needed a clear head and a running nose just doesn't cut it.after the crying session, we headed for gate 3 and got our act together. we were able to finish it in till the very last guitar riff (well, at that), and we were really pleased about that. ecstatic, actually. why wouldn't we be? we've been toiling for every hour we can. but when the time came for the general rehearsals, we did ok but the end was still shaky.

when i got on the school bus and became exposed to the different comments, one thing was certain. no one expected us to win. a third-year busmate of mine said the nice dances in 2nd year were the fans, the malongs, the green panyos and the palayok. no mention of the tutup, or the nails. i was insulted of course because i was just right there. there's no point in sharing this piece of information to my classmates. why dampen their spirits? we definitely set our sights low enough already. no more winning, just getting a fair grade. nothing compared to last year, surely. at least then, we had a clear chance of winning. and now, we are so far away from that. anyway, there's no one to tell this to, so i'm writing it here. greaaaaat.