currently listening to: the silence

yet another day of wasting away in my house. i was supposed to go to eureka's but i chickened out. i hate myself for this. i should be able to go out of the house and go places! i'm going to college next school year for chris'sakes. but somehow the idea of commuting at night daunts me. so here i am at home, stuffing my face with food. i desperately want sims 3 so that i can do something fun (but i have to admit, still unproductive). my dad wants me to go to calapan so i can really learn how to drive. i dunno. i really do not want to go alone. if ever, i only want to stay a week or so. after all, i still have stuff i have to take care of but can't be bothered to take care of now. i suck, i know. meanwhile, i haven't talked to daryll in ages. where has that girl gone off to and why isn't she calling me? has she gone to isabela? not even a text? really? life would be much happier if there was someone i could go around the town with. with a car preferably. i used to with my sister. but she's so busy now so we never get to hang out or go to the malls. yeah, i miss my siblings. at least i had someone to talk to then. now, i often find myself alone here at home. such is the sadness of my existence. i desperately want to go to the new national bookstore that opened up near our house to buy books and magazines. i'll slowly die if i don't feed my brain more.

let me go watch american idol first before i finish this post.

my sister is here now. some company at last! bye for now :)