its late but i just had to get this off my chest. kriska called. it was totally unexpected. for the reason that we had no communication for a couple of weeks and that it was 10:00 in the evening. i was excited that she called. really surprised. i wanted to see how she was doing. so she gave me the full report. unfortunately, she gave me THE FULL REPORT. nothing was left out. she has new friends now and that's all she talks about anymore. she keeps on saying that i have to know the people she's talking about to be able to understand. i want to but i don't. we're disconnected. its amazing that in a few months time she's become a completely different person. maybe not completely different but i just don't know her anymore. she used to be the simple, i-can-laugh-and-be-comfortable-around-you girl, who is down-to-earth and understands real life situations. now she speaks in 'maarte' english which has a drawl to it. she's different. although she's still nice and friendly. i miss the old kriska. but i don't wanna judge the changed kriska too quickly. i should get to know her better first. again. a year ago i would never write this about kriska. it just weird that she's acting different and talking about her new friends. maybe i'm just jealous. maybe a part of me won't accept the fact that she found other friends who she prefers. maybe its my own fault. who knows? one thing is for sure though, she'll always be one of my bestest friends. even if i'm not that person to her anymore. :)